a year in review
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This year has been one of the biggest struggles of my life but I know it can only get better. I'm praying that 2013 will be better!
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I am never the same person at the end of a year that I was at the beginning.
My life has never been one of stability or stagnation. I push myself too hard to ever relax. Every year seems to be a mountain I cannot seem to climb, but I always grow in ways I could never imagine to meet the challenges I encounter.
I don't know who I'll be next year at this time. But if I make it, I know I'll have been molded by trials and challenges that if I knew of now I would want to give up.
My life has never been one of stability or stagnation. I push myself too hard to ever relax. Every year seems to be a mountain I cannot seem to climb, but I always grow in ways I could never imagine to meet the challenges I encounter.
I don't know who I'll be next year at this time. But if I make it, I know I'll have been molded by trials and challenges that if I knew of now I would want to give up.
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Told you!
Btw, losing that weight and eating better is amazing. Honestly, that is a life style change and when done it is worth it! Good for you.
Also, I remember how hard your work was last year and now how much happier you are with your new job. I'm so proud of you in all accounts.
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wow !
Yeah, beginning of 2012 I was a 2 pack a day smoker.
Now, none. I bummed a cig off someone and I couldn't even smoke it, it tasted horrible (and it was my old brand) and hurt.... not enough to make me cough but enough to make it unpleasant, all these months away my body no longer can handle them. I dropped it in the toilet and flushed it.
I smoked since I was 8 or 9 so my identity still suffers (in social situations I would smoke, now that, I no longer do. I still feel a little bit awkward not knowing what to do with my hands). but outside of that I am done with them. Its the difficult part that is still sticking around but once I rewire my brain away from the triggers..(got most of them kicked but there are some that weren't as common but are still triggers).. Ill be done completely.
But I am officially at a stage where I am not going back to them (otherwise I never would have flushed that cig with only 3 drags taken off it, without sitting at the toilet in almost in tears for the nicotine that didn't get to be inhaled by my lungs.
)Thank the Lord the only way I have ever been able to quit is still effective with will power and Him. "Cold turkey." was still a MAJOR pain in the.............
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Thats amazing, Toro. I know a lot of smokers and I know how hard it is to kick them for good. Thats a huge accomplishment
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*Comes of out hiding* 
Anywho..2012 overall was a good year. Though the hard part for me was having to distance myself from a few people (which includes a couple of family members unfortunately). My bf and I have decided to tie the knot. Which is why I haven't been posting here in the Singles section. I also made a decision to go through with some plans for myself because I no longer want to keep putting them off.
This is also true for me as well. I want to enter 2013 without being surrounded by toxic people, because they can be very emotionally draining, and if you're not careful financially. I also feeling a lot more confident about myself. Recently I joined a fitness club to get in shape.
Anywho..2012 overall was a good year. Though the hard part for me was having to distance myself from a few people (which includes a couple of family members unfortunately). My bf and I have decided to tie the knot. Which is why I haven't been posting here in the Singles section. I also made a decision to go through with some plans for myself because I no longer want to keep putting them off.
This is also true for me as well. I want to enter 2013 without being surrounded by toxic people, because they can be very emotionally draining, and if you're not careful financially. I also feeling a lot more confident about myself. Recently I joined a fitness club to get in shape.
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I know I personally was really glad and relieved to hear that you had quit. Good for you, Toro.
My year has probably had more lows than highs, but you know...it is what it is. God has a plan for everyone and everything, and that plan does include trials. And knowing this, it instantly gives me peace about it all. God always knows the bigger picture.
I've had the blessing of seeing a life enter this world, and experienced the heartbreak of a life leaving this world. I suppose with the loss of my Grandmother (whom I helped care for in our home for 6 years; she passed away in July) I've entered a very different chapter of my life. I know have the opportunity to do things, pursue my interests, make certain goals, ect., that I didn't have the liberty to do before because so much of my time was spent in caring for my grandmother. Writing this is actually choking me up. ...I see now, looking back over the past 6 years, how my mother has harbored a great sense of guilt inside because she feels she has robbed me of those 6 years in needing me to be home to assist her with Gramma. I've assured her that she has no reason to feel guilty, because as much as I love having the freedom to do the things I've wanted to do, I love my mother and Gramma more and would do it all over again in a heartbeat.
I have my mother dealing with potentially serious health issues, I've been blessed with more work, I've experienced serious issues with a friendship that I fortunately was able to get past, I've seen my brother get engaged with the wonderful, one and only girl he's ever had in his life.....and much more. Like I said, highs and lows. Perhaps the Lord has more highs for me in 2013. Who knows.
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Probably the worst year of my life, but there was some good.
Good
- I had a niece born on October 25.
- Helped out at VBS chaperoning the little kids and absolutely loved it. Took my five year old nephew the first two days and, after some initial uncertainty, he liked it as well.
- Got on Facebook and connected and re-connected with people.
- Had a great vacation in Florida.
- Saw The Dark Knight Rises, a movie I'd been waiting years for.
- Read Bag of Bones for the first time and its now my favorite Stephen King book.
- Went to LPAC and had fun there. Got to meet Ron Paul, get his signature, and get my picture with him.
- Went to Matsuricon. Met Doug Walker/Nostalgia Critic, got his autograph, and a picture with him.
- Went to the Ohio Comic-Con and got to see Patrick Stewart and John de Lancie from a short distance.
- Started at a community college.
Bad
- Started at a community college.
- In late August, our beloved family cat whom weve had since I was in elementary school died.
- About a month and a half ago my parents separated and will probably get divorced.
- No one at school likes me.
- Every girl I like is with someone else.
- I cant get a job.
- Went to a party over the summer and it was a horrible experience.
- Ive gone in and out of depression. Early this year I didnt want to live anymore.
- It was an election year
- Got sick for a week or two, which is really rare for me. Last time I got sick was in 2008.
- I was told I was worse than a communist
- Cant finish my novella
Ugly
- Even after five years and countless treatments, my acne still wont go away.
Good
- I had a niece born on October 25.
- Helped out at VBS chaperoning the little kids and absolutely loved it. Took my five year old nephew the first two days and, after some initial uncertainty, he liked it as well.
- Got on Facebook and connected and re-connected with people.
- Had a great vacation in Florida.
- Saw The Dark Knight Rises, a movie I'd been waiting years for.
- Read Bag of Bones for the first time and its now my favorite Stephen King book.
- Went to LPAC and had fun there. Got to meet Ron Paul, get his signature, and get my picture with him.
- Went to Matsuricon. Met Doug Walker/Nostalgia Critic, got his autograph, and a picture with him.
- Went to the Ohio Comic-Con and got to see Patrick Stewart and John de Lancie from a short distance.
- Started at a community college.
Bad
- Started at a community college.
- In late August, our beloved family cat whom weve had since I was in elementary school died.
- About a month and a half ago my parents separated and will probably get divorced.
- No one at school likes me.
- Every girl I like is with someone else.
- I cant get a job.
- Went to a party over the summer and it was a horrible experience.
- Ive gone in and out of depression. Early this year I didnt want to live anymore.
- It was an election year
- Got sick for a week or two, which is really rare for me. Last time I got sick was in 2008.
- I was told I was worse than a communist
- Cant finish my novella
Ugly
- Even after five years and countless treatments, my acne still wont go away.
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*Comes of out hiding*
Anywho..2012 overall was a good year. Though the hard part for me was having to distance myself from a few people (which includes a couple of family members unfortunately). My bf and I have decided to tie the knot. Which is why I haven't been posting here in the Singles section. I also made a decision to go through with some plans for myself because I no longer want to keep putting them off.
This is also true for me as well. I want to enter 2013 without being surrounded by toxic people, because they can be very emotionally draining, and if you're not careful financially. I also feeling a lot more confident about myself. Recently I joined a fitness club to get in shape.
Congratulations!
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Why's that bad? I recommend EVERYONE start at a community college.
I didn't know that. Geez.
Totally sympathize.
Aww, man. I wish you could come to my and my friends' parties. You'd totally love them. You'd fit in with us.
Always bad.
Whoa dude! That's like, a libertarian rite of passage. Mozal tov!
Ugh, me too. I've had a year and a half long case of writer's block.
I was 25 when mine went away. Give it some more time.
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Nilloc
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I was being somewhat tongue-in-cheek. Notice I put this on both lists. I actually loved college (the learning anyway), but the other things I listed about people not liking me and girls are due to college. It also didn't help my cat died six days before I started and all this stuff with my parents started in the middle of the semester, right after the election, while I was still sick, and just before Thanksgiving. The perfect storm of misery.
Still though, I got off easy with classes this semester. Next semester is gonna kill me.
I was referring to that party with all the Objectivists I went to. If you remember, they didn't attack me, but Ron Paul and libertarians in general.
It was by a Randroid guy I met at the above party. We're friends on Facebook and he exploded when I posted something by Rothbard. I think I mentioned that before.
I wrote most of it already. Stopped in the summer and all I've done since was when I wrote less than 900 words a week or two ago.
It's just that I've tried every thing under the sun and it never seems to help even a little.
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This year was horrible. During the first half of the year I experienced the worst depression ever in my life. My mental health deteriorated even more.
Next year is my last year to clean my life up, or it's over. This year pushed me into that thinking.
Next year is my last year to clean my life up, or it's over. This year pushed me into that thinking.
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2012 was a hard year for me. At the end of 2011 my mom was diagnosed with terminal cancer. I had to come to grips with that and work on improving our relationship. Her and I had never been close, and I had thought that we never would be. But I realized that in holding on to my hurt and anger towards her I was only hurting myself. I wish I had given it all up years ago. There was a lot of tears shed as we tried to accept the future, little as it may be, that we had together and heal the past. I've learned a lot in that journey and I am still learning. It's been hard but I can say I'm in a much better place now than I was a year ago.
I also started on a weight loss journey this year and have decided to be satisfied with who I am. It's contradictory I know but that's how I've been doing things. I'm tired of letting my low self esteem and doubt hold me down and this last year I've worked really hard to put them behind me.
This has been one of the hardest years of my life, but i'm coming out of it a better person. I never thought I would make it, but the way out is through, and I've made it out stronger.
I also started on a weight loss journey this year and have decided to be satisfied with who I am. It's contradictory I know but that's how I've been doing things. I'm tired of letting my low self esteem and doubt hold me down and this last year I've worked really hard to put them behind me.
This has been one of the hardest years of my life, but i'm coming out of it a better person. I never thought I would make it, but the way out is through, and I've made it out stronger.
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What is wrong with your life?
It doesn't mean anything if you life happens to be worse than mine, I'll still end it if I want too . I could careless if someone else is suffering more than me.
Burn victims hiding in the darkness, innocent person in prison fearful of being raped again.. someone in Africa holding their aids ridden mother in agony. I can't come close to competeing with their suffering, but it doesn't change he fact that I still want to kill myself.
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If there are people in a worse position than you that don't kill themselves why should you. I know it's your life and you can do whatever you want but suicide is a waste of what could have been. Life can always turn around. Things can't stay bad forever. While you're alive there is still hope. That's what keeps me going.
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I like NILLOC's style.
GOOD
- joined my fraternity, best decision I've made. They're my 26 closest friends
- Made an intentional effort to grow closer to all of my friends
- I completed half of my undergrad studies
- "came out of my shell"
- lost twelve pounds from cutting down on soda and fast food
- 3.5 and a 3.75 GPA
- saw the Texans win their first playoff game and then go 12-2
- saw Texas A&M go 10-2 in their first SEC season
- and have their first Heisman winner in 55 years
- saw OKC win the Western Conference
BAD
- my grandmother passed away
- couldn't get a job this summer
- the Astros still sucked
GOOD
- joined my fraternity, best decision I've made. They're my 26 closest friends
- Made an intentional effort to grow closer to all of my friends
- I completed half of my undergrad studies
- "came out of my shell"
- lost twelve pounds from cutting down on soda and fast food
- 3.5 and a 3.75 GPA
- saw the Texans win their first playoff game and then go 12-2
- saw Texas A&M go 10-2 in their first SEC season
- and have their first Heisman winner in 55 years
- saw OKC win the Western Conference
BAD
- my grandmother passed away
- couldn't get a job this summer
- the Astros still sucked
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No, I'm just sick of it all.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still happy at times but for the most part I'm angry/sad/full of rage. My life is just a never ending cycle of crap.
I'm fed up with society, I'm fed up with my mind, I'm fed up with being human.
If other people choose to endure the agony good for them, but I'm not going too. The reasons people choose to stay alive vary. Some people have religion holding them back, I don't. Some peoples principles are different etc... It's perfectly understandable why some people would choose to off themselves while those who have it much worse would choose not too.
Being human isn't all that great anyways, it's like we live in the stone age... there is nothing to do... We have all these gadgets and technology but they don't amount to anything. Perhaps I'm just one of those people who can't handle living in the modern world. Are humans even designed for this?
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