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I great up praying to God every night, praying before I eat, went to youth group and church every Sunday and all the way up until I was 18 I was a strong person. I dared not ever break the sin of sleeping with a woman out of wedlock, and again... I turned 18.
I have taught martial arts to kids and teens since I was 14 years old. Well to put it very blunt after all the years I had waited and struggled, I lost the fight and had sex with one of the women I was training.
To keep this short and to the point I pretty much began my spiral downward. I became everything that I was taught to never become. I drink, I smoked and worst of all the one thing I was proud of, being able to say I was a virgin at the age of 18 became my biggest obsession.
I am writing this because I want to know if I am the only one that became this bad. What did others do, and most of all can God even look at me the same...
I touch, drink on a weekly basis, watch inappropriate contentography daily and worst of all I have slept with well over 17 girls in the last 5 years.
I did it tonight and didn't even know her. I am lucky I know her name.
At this point in my life and can accept being judged, and I can accept anything that is thrown at me, but for the sake of me even being able to look at myself in the mirror I am only writing this because I want to know if any one has done this to themselves and did they ever make it out.
All I ask is please don't hit me to hard. I cracked tonight and I don't even know where to begin now.
 

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USNGemenii- You have my sympathy. No judgement here. I am thinking though that you may find more support on the Men's forum (I think it's called struggles with inappropriate contentography).

You have my prayers and just know you are never too far gone for the Lord!!!!
 
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I will not judge you for sinning differently than me. Actually you only sin partially differently than me.
Have you ever heard of "Setting Captives Free?" They are a wonderful ministry that deals with a lot of what you're struggling with. Please look into their "Way of Purity" course. It is 100% free, and you are given a mentor who used to be captive to sexual sin but became free through God working through this ministry. Men are given male mentors and women are given female mentors. I am mostly struggling now because I stopped doing my lessons. I hope this helps you! Their website is settingcaptivesfree.com. I'd give you a link but I don't have enough posts to be allowed to do that yet. :)
 
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I can kind of relate to this. After losing my virginity at 18 and than cheating in him. I have a done and still struggle with doing sexual things or having sex. It's really hard for me now but I understand what you mean. I have done a lot more and become a person I said I would never be.
 
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I know exactly what you're going through brother. I have done things along those lines before and I regret them very much. Although you may be in a hole of darkness, there is always light. Your problems can be helped and you can always be forgiven thanks to Jesus. Jesus paid for ALL types of possible sin done by humans. So as long as you try to change these ways and are trully sorry, there is always forgiveness. Good luck!
 
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I had gone through the post. You should be very careful in participating like these sort of concerns. There are now more than twenty sexually transmitted infections that we know these days they are known as sexually transmitted diseases, or STDs, and sexually transmitted infections, or STls, rather than venereal diseases, with viral infections such as that caused by the human immunodeficiency virus (HIV) often of greatest concern.
 
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It's not about being a virgin. It's about being faithful to God.

Virginity, that's something you give to the woman you love more than life itself, God couldn't care less about it, other than that He wants what's best for us.

You robbed that woman you will one day call the love of your life of your virginity, not God. Well, you did rob God, but only because you robbed her, and what you do to the least of these you do to God.

You failed God because you stopped serving Him and started serving the pleasures of the world.

Now that you realize those pleasures aren't worth going to hell for, start focusing on God again and doing what God wants you too. You had your time to experience and realize that this life really isn't worth hell, and now that you know that, focus on what's right again. And you can profusely apologize to the love of your life when you find her one day for selfishly robbing her of that most intimate of times, and then learn from it to at least not rob her again of your next and thereafter times with her after a solid commitment before God and man is made.
 
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being able to say I was a virgin at the age of 18 became my biggest obsession.

This is where you missed it. A Christian's biggest obsession should be Jesus.

Without Jesus we are all harlots, even if we have never had sex. Why? If our eyes stray once, and our heart lusts once, we committed adultery.

I'm sorry it happened but it sounds like you were trusting in yourself back then? We fail ourselves. We are not the source of our strength, nor the things we can boast about as our accomplishments.

Romans 3:27 - Where is boasting then? It is excluded. By what law? of works? Nay: but by the law of faith.

The great news is you don't have to live here. You can become a virgin again. God told me this today. This very day God told me through revelation, that I am a virgin.

But I have slept with women before I was a Christian, and then also, I have lusted after I was a Christian and committed fornication in doing so. But then how am I a virgin?

I am jealous for you with a godly jealousy. I promised you to one husband, to Christ, so that I might present you as a pure virgin to him. - 2 Corinthians 11:2

This church, Paul endeavors to present to Christ as a pure virgin, is a church that has been embroiled in sexual immorality.

It is actually reported that there is sexual immorality among you, and of a kind that even pagans do not tolerate: A man is sleeping with his father's wife. - 1 Corinthians 5:1

But this man was forgiven, and brought back into the church, and then Paul makes the statement, that he endeavors to present that man along with the others who were sexually immoral, as a virgin to Christ!

Now instead, you ought to forgive and comfort him, so that he will not be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. - 2 Corinthians 2:7

When you boast of being a virgin again, you will boast in Christ, because you will know that you did not produce your pureness but it was a gift from God. God wants to flip it around and give it to you free of charge, by faith, and the washing of the word in your life. Christ, our bridegroom, washes us with his word, and this word cleanses us of corruptness, and his blood cleanses us of sin. The water and the blood, turn harlots into virgins in the kingdom of God.

And then you can live in it in this life.

At this point in my life and can accept being judged, and I can accept anything that is thrown at me, but for the sake of me even being able to look at myself in the mirror I am only writing this because I want to know if any one has done this to themselves and did they ever make it out.
All I ask is please don't hit me to hard. I cracked tonight and I don't even know where to begin now.

You followed rules when you were young. But did you ever follow Jesus?

It is different. The Bible gives rules, but the rules can never ever make us holy or pure before God!

I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance. - Luke 5:32

When you boasted in your youth that you were a virgin, you did not qualify to join the kingdom of Jesus Christ. You declared your own righteousness. Only those who know they are not righteous qualify for Jesus. You now qualify for the kingdom of God in Christ.

Romans 10 - Since they did not know the righteousness of God and sought to establish their own, they did not submit to God's righteousness. Christ is the culmination of the law so that there may be righteousness for everyone who believes. ... If you declare with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

Acts 2 - [After realizing they had murdered God's Son, the men of Israel said:] “Men and brethren, what shall we do?

Then Peter said to them, “Repent, and let every one of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins; and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. For the promise is to you and to your children, and to all who are afar off, as many as the Lord our God will call.”

Edit: I see now it's an old thread. :( Hope you met Jesus!
 
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worst of all the one thing I was proud of, being able to say I was a virgin at the age of 18 became my biggest obsession.
Reminds me of the parable of the tax collector: Luke 18 "13 But the tax collector stood at a distance, unwilling even to lift up his eyes to heaven. Instead, he beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner!’ 14 I tell you, this man, rather than the Pharisee, went home justified. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.”
 
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Reminds me of the parable of the tax collector: Luke 18 "13 But the tax collector stood at a distance, unwilling even to lift up his eyes to heaven. Instead, he beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner!’ 14 I tell you, this man, rather than the Pharisee, went home justified. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.”
Excellent post!
I drink, I smoked and worst of all the one thing I was proud of, being able to say I was a virgin at the age of 18 became my biggest obsession.
I am writing this because I want to know if I am the only one that became this bad. What did others do, and most of all can God even look at me the same...
"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." All of us, every single one of us. From what I read you don't seem to be addicted to alcohol or sex which is a good thing. Often our shame makes us want to drink and other things that feel good. We just want to feel good because the sin makes us feel bad. But fear not! As is says above, ask humbly for forgiveness and it is freely given. When you are forgiven, there is no more need to feel ashamed because we are free. Even if we must ask again and again. God knows your heart and knows you want to obey him. He knows your struggles and blesses you for bringing your struggles to him. I could go on and on. It's my favorite part of our religion.
 
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