My wife passed away 2 months ago. We had 10 years of a blessed life. Now I am finding hard not to obsess with what happened the night she passed. She had Multiple Slcerosis and it was progressing fast. I seem to be dwelling on the what if's, if only's, regrets, could I have saved her? I am depressed, physical pains, heart palpitations, choking, feel like I can't breathe. I do know we had the most wonderful Christian marriage I could ask for as we prayed, studied together. What I learned from a post is that Satan wants to keep is in this pitfall of regret and such. I know God has something beautiful planned for me, but as hard as it is, I am just terribly lonely, a basket case. Any ideas for getting back into life I would welcome very much, as I must turn this over to Christ, especially knowing she is with Him. Thanks, lost and desperate.
Breck
First of all, I am so sorry for your loss. I know what you're going through after losing my husband two years ago. May God bring you peace, understanding and comfort.
I'd like to respond to one particular statement you made. Philippians 4:8 states, "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things."
What if's, if only's, woulda's, coulda's, shoulda's... never happened. They are not true, they are not real. God instructs us to only think about things that are "true". What if's, ect...are satan's work to keep us chained to negativity, taking our focus off of what's real.
You are right, your wife is walking with Jesus and the separation you are in is only temporary as you will see her again for eternity!! PTL!!!
Another Scripture that I had come to consistantly rely on is Isaiah 26:3 which states, "You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you."
I encourage you to reflect on the words in this passage. What a promise God makes to us and He DOES keep His promises!!!
I'll be praying for you!!! God bless you!!