I just need to let it out

Have you seen a therapist for this? Also a pdoc that can help you but if you can go without meds that would be great. ERP was develope stricly for this disorder. Ans It will help you big time. I would say med but I wished I never had taken them because now I'm hooked on them and the withdrawals are worse then the OCD. But a SSRI would really help you and lesson the thoughts. Also maybe a benzo to calm you down. We can only do so much, but if you need anymore help just PM me.

I will most definitely pray for you.

Thoughts & Prayers!!!!

BC

WOW. THE SAME THING HAPPENED TO ME IN THAT ORDER. I remember balling my eyes out to my mom about how i wanted to get closer to God then the thoughts got worse and i felt God rejected me. I smiled when i read your story cause i believe your on a breakthrough. Just know that your not alone. My ocd got worse than it ever was when i wanted a personal relationship. Then, almost out of no where God started healing me. I thank him soo much and i feel so much better now. If he hadnt of helped me i would be in depression by now. I feel your pain. Your not alone. One thing to NOT let go of is hope. Keep asking God for your healing and dont stop. The feeling of being healed is worth the striving.

When people told me 'ignore the thoughts' i felt i couldnt and would go to hell if i let them run wild in my mind. Know that those arent your thoughts and its not your fault. I started trying to ignore the thoughts and that helped soo much. Almost everytime i had a flood of bad thoughts i would ask God 'please take that thought away' and when it came back i did the same thing. And i kept doing it. It wasnt fun but i was fed up. And i did that almost up to the time when he delivered me of ocd symptoms. Thank God. Im not saying you must do what i did to get healed but at least keep praying over yourself and in will also interceed for you. When two come together and pray God hears and answers their prayers.

God bless you. The Father loves you. Remeber this. Your very special to Him like a jewel or a treasure. There is only one 'you' in this world and you are special to Him. He hasnt rejected you. Hes making you so low that you only rely on Him and not yourself. Throw your ocd in his hands everyday when you wake up with the mind that today you will let Him take care of your ocd instead of yourself. Be not afraid to let go. He still cares for you and feels your pain with you. Stay strong.

I feel the same exact way as well, I felt like to more I started submitting and getting closer to god that I had more intrusive thoughts. I started getting very afraid , I prayed and cried a lot... But I felt so much better reading these posts.

Just trust God and Let Him do the rest.

I am praying to Jesus for your concerns.

You will be fine. I'm praying for you.
You need to trust God completely with what your going through, he did not reject you.
Your deliverance is soon, just hang on, you are not supposed to go through this alone, that is why Jesus died for you.