i can hardly breathe...even if my mother says she's sorry and admits to the beatings my brothers gave me, and my oldest cousin molesting me it's too late.
i feel like i shouldn't have to tell her how she should react...when she witness the first time my brothers beating me she should have stopped it...when i got the courage and strength to tell her what my oldest cousin did to me she should have reacted.
i went to her house last week and it was a disaster...she refuses to admit what has happen to me.
one of the things i said to her was...growing up i was so scared of my brothers i couldn't form a sentence...i would stutter...she said "ok your brothers would call you names." what is she talking about?
she kept on bringing up what my in laws said and did to me and i responsed...my in laws are not my mother and brothers.
so saying she is sorry it feels like it's all for show, doesn't come from the heart...i shouldn't have to tell her what to say or how to feel.
i can't stop crying
i feel like i shouldn't have to tell her how she should react...when she witness the first time my brothers beating me she should have stopped it...when i got the courage and strength to tell her what my oldest cousin did to me she should have reacted.
i went to her house last week and it was a disaster...she refuses to admit what has happen to me.
one of the things i said to her was...growing up i was so scared of my brothers i couldn't form a sentence...i would stutter...she said "ok your brothers would call you names." what is she talking about?
she kept on bringing up what my in laws said and did to me and i responsed...my in laws are not my mother and brothers.
so saying she is sorry it feels like it's all for show, doesn't come from the heart...i shouldn't have to tell her what to say or how to feel.
i can't stop crying