Its lengthy but pls I need to hear some HONEST Christians who will willingly admit that they do have sexual thoughts...
Hello,
So my SO and I (both in our early 20s) have been courting for about a year now. He is a pastor's son and we both attend the same church, have the same faith, desire God together, enjoy the things of God, and are seeking to ensure that our relationship is pleasing in God's sight...We have a mentor couple who serve as our mentors and accountability partners, we have established our relationship to both our families and all that stuff...the only thing is that I cannot stop thinking about SEX...I mean, hot, deep, sensual, honey-moon night kind of stuff with him...I mean, I imagine stuff and imagine some HIGHLY sexual stuff happening between the two of us and those thoughts plague me throughout the whole day...I cannot concentrate on school work, or work work, or anything because the whole day, I am mentally and emotionally exhausted from suppressing thoughts and desires, fighting them, binding them, praying against them, doing all sorts of stuff, quoting scripture when possible...some days, I come home sooooo exhausted because the whole day, I have been mentally ranting and raving to get those thoughts out.
Now I don't tell him this because I don't want him to get the wrong perception and I find it safer to not ignite any conversation about this issue but its really bothering me...When we first started going out, we agreed to non-sexual interaction and accepted only holding hands, pecks on the cheeks, and hugs. No rubbing or anything like that. But recently, we just STARTED to kiss and I find that it goes all the way to some serious french kissing, WITHOUT touching any body parts and stuff like that....Just the french kiss alone in itself...I find that when I see him and we french kiss like that, those thoughts ALMOST IMMEDIATELY disappear and I am good and bouncy for like a week or 2. And then I start to miss him and the cycle starts again, the crazy thoughts comeback and I start fighting them...Might I add that we did not start kissing till like 4 months ago or so, and these thoughts even existed WAYYYY before we started kissing...so its not like the kissing made the thoughts come. The thoughts existed when all we did was hold hands...
Sometimes, when i have those thoughts, I run away from him or don't want to see him because I fear that the way I am feeling at that point in time when those thoughts come may lead us to do something we both don't want to do...We are both born again Christians, Spirit-filled, tongue talking (for those who believe in that like we do). I say these things to reassure that this is not a case of some uncertain Christians trying to know how far is far...This is a serious case to me, I know what is at stake and I really don't want this affecting mine or his spiritual walk...So, please when responding, respond with that in mind...We are planning on getting married but need to first put a few things in order before doing that...But till then, WHAT THE HECK DO I DO?
And yes, we know, read your bible, pray, don't be alone together, hang out with friends, have an accountability partner..yes...But I am not talking about the act of fornicating...I am talking about how to deal with these thoughts that come despite that I have done majority of the aforementioned things...So all in all, what in the world do I do? *sigh* Its driving me nuts...
Hello,
So my SO and I (both in our early 20s) have been courting for about a year now. He is a pastor's son and we both attend the same church, have the same faith, desire God together, enjoy the things of God, and are seeking to ensure that our relationship is pleasing in God's sight...We have a mentor couple who serve as our mentors and accountability partners, we have established our relationship to both our families and all that stuff...the only thing is that I cannot stop thinking about SEX...I mean, hot, deep, sensual, honey-moon night kind of stuff with him...I mean, I imagine stuff and imagine some HIGHLY sexual stuff happening between the two of us and those thoughts plague me throughout the whole day...I cannot concentrate on school work, or work work, or anything because the whole day, I am mentally and emotionally exhausted from suppressing thoughts and desires, fighting them, binding them, praying against them, doing all sorts of stuff, quoting scripture when possible...some days, I come home sooooo exhausted because the whole day, I have been mentally ranting and raving to get those thoughts out.
Now I don't tell him this because I don't want him to get the wrong perception and I find it safer to not ignite any conversation about this issue but its really bothering me...When we first started going out, we agreed to non-sexual interaction and accepted only holding hands, pecks on the cheeks, and hugs. No rubbing or anything like that. But recently, we just STARTED to kiss and I find that it goes all the way to some serious french kissing, WITHOUT touching any body parts and stuff like that....Just the french kiss alone in itself...I find that when I see him and we french kiss like that, those thoughts ALMOST IMMEDIATELY disappear and I am good and bouncy for like a week or 2. And then I start to miss him and the cycle starts again, the crazy thoughts comeback and I start fighting them...Might I add that we did not start kissing till like 4 months ago or so, and these thoughts even existed WAYYYY before we started kissing...so its not like the kissing made the thoughts come. The thoughts existed when all we did was hold hands...
Sometimes, when i have those thoughts, I run away from him or don't want to see him because I fear that the way I am feeling at that point in time when those thoughts come may lead us to do something we both don't want to do...We are both born again Christians, Spirit-filled, tongue talking (for those who believe in that like we do). I say these things to reassure that this is not a case of some uncertain Christians trying to know how far is far...This is a serious case to me, I know what is at stake and I really don't want this affecting mine or his spiritual walk...So, please when responding, respond with that in mind...We are planning on getting married but need to first put a few things in order before doing that...But till then, WHAT THE HECK DO I DO?
And yes, we know, read your bible, pray, don't be alone together, hang out with friends, have an accountability partner..yes...But I am not talking about the act of fornicating...I am talking about how to deal with these thoughts that come despite that I have done majority of the aforementioned things...So all in all, what in the world do I do? *sigh* Its driving me nuts...