Im home and I just want to get out of here. I feel like there is so much more out there. I want to start life on my own regardless of me being 19. I want to go to Africa, Japan, Egypt and preach. I want to just pack my bags and let God take me where he wants me to go. I want to do all of these things but my parents are preventing me. Just before I told my parents that I wanted to take the train to manhattan, living as a homeless person for a few days and then come back. Boy did they yell at me. I feel like my family is holding me back from a few things.
There are also many things going on in my family. I have been praying for my family. My dad has been drinking alcohol...I sense that there is sin running rampant throughout my home. My mother going to a medium, my father drinking alcohol, my brother selling drugs; my mother having anxiety, my brother having anxiety, my dad's love for the world; brother's sexual immorality, mother's self-esteem. Sin just sin running all around the house.
Writing these things down makes me realize that God has put me in this family for a reason. Advice if any...I've been reminded that I cannot do this alone.
There are also many things going on in my family. I have been praying for my family. My dad has been drinking alcohol...I sense that there is sin running rampant throughout my home. My mother going to a medium, my father drinking alcohol, my brother selling drugs; my mother having anxiety, my brother having anxiety, my dad's love for the world; brother's sexual immorality, mother's self-esteem. Sin just sin running all around the house.
Writing these things down makes me realize that God has put me in this family for a reason. Advice if any...I've been reminded that I cannot do this alone.
I think finding a church community is important for you right now where you can find some support. Maybe a good church leader like a pastor to seek some advice and direction would be good right now. 
