Was this the Holy Spirit?

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Hello, *Please bear with me through this*

I would like to share with you all something that happened to me almost a week ago (on May 18th) but first let me give you a little information about me regarding my faith.
When I was a teenager I didn't give thought to what 'religion' I belong or what denomination.
I was not raised around it, my mom has always struggled with faith and my dad keeps most feelings to himself.
I would lay in bed and get all freaked out thinking about 'what happens when we die?'
It would bother me so much I couldn't sleep. I would stay up all night and finally pass out sometime during the day from exhaustion.
This was a silent struggle, no one ever knew about it.

Once I decided to put a name to 'what I was' I called myself Deist.
I believed in God (rather WANTED, there to be a God) but since I had never felt anything, or seen anything to that was 'a miracle.'
I was still unsure, this went on for some time to where I then decided I was agnostic.
Because I just felt I would never know, but I since it had not been proven or disproved and I WANTED there to be a God I felt agnostic was the best choice over atheist.
I lived my life the way I wanted which was basically staying too messed up to think deeply or rationally.
Anyway after I moved from my home town I met my husband and we had our first kid in 2006.

I changed my lifestyle drastically when I became pregnant with him. No more drugs, no more heavy drinking.
Fast forward to present day, we have been married since and have 2 more kids and a few months ago I found out my moms sister had cancer.
She found out and 4 weeks later died.
This hit me really hard, even though I loved her like crazy she lived over 1000 miles away from me so we were not all that close, but it just blew me away.
I started suffering from bad anxiety and panic and hypochondria. (ALL the stuff I suffered from as a teen)
Now it was even worse cause I have a family and I am older.

So I started feeling compelled to find out what this life was for.
Are we all just awesome works of evolution?
Did God create us, and most importantly to me, is there life after death?
I started to consider myself a Deist again but I began studying and reading and seeking to I got sick and tired of fighting it.
I said-Ok, I will either ACCEPT the bible or I will REJECT it!
I already knew I was not going to reject it so what choice am I left with?

Now here is when my initial post comes into play.
I was sitting in my recliner watching tv as well as looking around on facebook with one of my kids asleep in his playpen, and my other 2 were on each arm of my chair.
Totally normal nothing out of the ordinary when all of a sudden I heard in my head 'I am that I am' it was not a strangers voice, it was like I was thinking to myself I guess you could say.
Well my first reaction was to put that as my facebook status- I was on there already- then I was like, 'Wait, why did I just think that?' I have not read all of the bible and I do not know verses by heart so I went and searched for it and found it in Exodus 3:14. From there I was lead to John 8:58.
I can not explain the feeling that came over me at this moment.
I teared up and was overwhelmed with a sense of peace and comfort.

I kept thinking, God said this in the OT, Jesus said this is the NT.
I know it may seem plain as day to some of you but it was like an eye opener for me and something telling me -You CAN trust this. I told a few ppl about my experience and the said it was the Holy Spirit.
Well, the next day we got a call that my dads sister passed away in her sleep (we are guessing, she was found in bed) The news was shocking nonetheless but it was not until later when I was in bed that I started to wonder about what had happened to me the day before.

Was it a coincidence or was it really the Holy Spirit?
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Thank you for taking the time to read this and hopefully respond with your thoughts.
I apologize for how long this is.
 
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My personal opinion is that the things you have been experiencing is because God's Spirit has been dealing with you. He knows that you are interested and I think He is confirming to you that yes, He does indeed exist. The fact that He said something to you that could be confirmed in the Bible is profound. The is just the sort of thing He does when He knows we are interested in Him!

I somewhat understand your prolonged search because even though I professed that I was a Christian I did not really have faith that Jesus died to pay my sin debt for forty years! I lived in misery all that time, until I just decided that I would take Him at His Word. Once I did that I felt so free that it was almost unfathomable, and a huge relief.

Once we agree with God that Jesus is His Son, Who gave His life and sinless blood to pay our sin debt; a debt we can not pay because we are born into a sin nature, we can readily find Salvation.

Here you can read what God said about Jesus, pay attention to verses 1,2 and 14
John 1 KJV - In the beginning was the Word, and the - Bible Gateway

You can also read John 3; John 3 KJV - There was a man of the Pharisees, named - Bible Gateway
Most of us are familiar with John 3:16, but also pay attention to the 36th. verse.

It took me a long time, as I said above, to understand that God loved us enough to send His Son to redeem us.
 
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My personal opinion is that the things you have been experiencing is because God's Spirit has been dealing with you. He knows that you are interested and I think He is confirming to you that yes, He does indeed exist. The fact that He said something to you that could be confirmed in the Bible is profound. The is just the sort of thing He does when He knows we are interested in Him!

I have heard that God will pursue people. I wonder at times if this is him, because he is always on my mind, from the moment I wake till I go to bed. I said the same for atheist who go into places where there are Christians and stir up stuff. Why wold a person that is not thinking about God (if you do not believe in something why would you think about it enough to debate/talk about it with others?) I feel God is always on peoples minds because he is pursuing them. But this is my opinion :)
 
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It very well could be! Just remember don't base your faith on experiences, that faith will waver when life gets tough. Base your faith on truth. Truth that Christ rose from the dead, this faith will never waver. Your heart can't go where your mind won't. The Spirit of God indwells each one who is His. He guides and teaches, He helps us to understand, to grow, to love. Seek the fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness. Grown in perfect faith: add to it goodness; knowledge; self-control; perseverance; godliness; brotherly kindness; and love. Scriptural reference to what we are to seek in the Spirit.
 
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Your testimony is really good. I do believe it is the "Holy Spirit". There is times where my "Holy Spirit" would tell me to go to my bible. Because He wants to say something. And the scriptures that I end up finding are usually are in Isaiah. Most of the scriptures are very helpful of the understanding of the day, or what was going to happen later in the future of that day begins.
 
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It very well could be! Just remember don't base your faith on experiences, that faith will waver when life gets tough. Base your faith on truth. Truth that Christ rose from the dead, this faith will never waver. Your heart can't go where your mind won't. The Spirit of God indwells each one who is His. He guides and teaches, He helps us to understand, to grow, to love. Seek the fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness. Grown in perfect faith: add to it goodness; knowledge; self-control; perseverance; godliness; brotherly kindness; and love. Scriptural reference to what we are to seek in the Spirit.

Thank you! :) I understand what you mean by not basing faith on experiences and how it will waver if you do. Before this experience I did do that. I still struggle but I am not laying around asking God to reveal himself or show me a sign, any sign, something that I will know is from him. Even though I would get agitated that I did not get what I 'thought' I was seeking from him in that regard, I never got mad 'at Him'. You know how some ppl will get mad at God for not doing these things? Well I just couldn't. No matter what, even through all my trials and the skepticism I have always known deep down that there is no way that my human mind can understand all of the workings of God.
 
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Your testimony is really good. I do believe it is the "Holy Spirit". There is times where my "Holy Spirit" would tell me to go to my bible. Because He wants to say something. And the scriptures that I end up finding are usually are in Isaiah. Most of the scriptures are very helpful of the understanding of the day, or what was going to happen later in the future of that day begins.

This has been one tough yr! I had been getting over surgery of having my son so I had all those emotions (postpartum, etc.) going on when I got the news of my aunt, then she passed away. Not long after that my best friends dad went in for back surgery, caught pneumonia while there, and died. He was a good man to me. He was my boss for a long time and also gave me a place to live for some time when I was in need. Then a few months later another aunt passes. The thing is I have always heard God will not give you more than you can handle, right? So perhaps what happened to me came right on time. Like I said it happened the day before we got the news.
 
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God's timing is always correct, even when we think He is not.
To build your faith you should read your bible because;
Romans 10:17
So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
Romans 10 KJV - Brethren, my heart's desire and prayer - Bible Gateway

I believe that God made us with a place that only He can fill, and when we are searching and trying to fill that space, neither booze or drugs or sex can satisfy it. Only God and His Word can satisfy that place!

You seem to be on the right path and I pray that God will direct your step every way, every day toward Him.
 
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So sorry about your aunt and boss. Why is it that deaths tend to gang up like that! Hopefully that will be all you endure for a while.

It is so touching that God sent that word on that particular day, right before you needed the reassurance. It does sound like something He'd do.

I am not laying around asking God to reveal himself or show me a sign, any sign, something that I will know is from him.
Just pray that if it wasn't Him, you will know. It was very much in line with the way He works with us. And it lined up with scriptures.

Some people don't get a lot of messages like that, but some of us get them every day. I don't know why, but I'm glad I do.

Just this morning before our sermon, I heard, [this sermon is going to relate to the online videos people sent you this week]. I started to scrutinize what I heard, then thought oh-my-goodness-why-am-I-resisting. And it turned out true -- the sermon was on a different topic, but the gist was on how to adapt to the challenges that face us.

Even though I would get agitated that I did not get what I 'thought' I was seeking from him in that regard, I never got mad 'at Him'. You know how some ppl will get mad at God for not doing these things? Well I just couldn't.

In a good conversation, we learn new things from the other person, and they don't tell us exactly what we already knew. People who get angry are often telling God what to do, as though He can be puppeteered.

What I have heard taught about "I am that I am" -- originally, Jews were not allowed to call God by a name, because He was above all else. His name needed to be revered. When people start owning and battling over names and characteristics, they start to act like they have the corner on the God market.

He just is.

People used the name Ha-Shem, "the Name" (above all names).

Then there were terms like Elohim -- similar to how we use a general term like "God" that people understand when it's capitalized.

Yahweh and Jehovah... and a lot of descriptive add-ons like "deliverer, protector."

I feel God is always on peoples minds because he is pursuing them. But this is my opinion :)
I think you're right. Seek, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you.

It is also very much like the verse, "pray without ceasing." You are connecting with Him on a non-verbal level. He knows you are seeking Him out, without words, just like people can pray without words and still be heard.
 
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an oddity said in post #8:

To build your faith you should read your bible because;
Romans 10:17
So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

Great advice. And all the words of the Bible are inspired by God the Holy Spirit (2 Tim. 3:16-4:4, Mt. 4:4, 2 Pet. 1:21). One way to read the Bible is to think of it as 7 volumes:

1. Gen. to Deut.
2. Josh. to Est.
3. Job to Song of Solomon
4. Isa. to Mal.
5. Mt. to Acts
6. Rom. to Philemon
7. Heb. to Rev.

You can read a chapter in each volume every day. This will keep you current in every part of the Bible. There won't be any part of the Bible that you haven't read recently enough to remember what it says. When you reach the end of a volume, simply start again at the 1st chapter of that volume. In this way, you'll be cycling through smaller volumes like #6 & #7 much more often than larger volumes like #2, but the smaller volumes are so much more dense with doctrine that it can be profitable to read them over & over more often.

Also, you can listen to recordings of people reading the Bible, whenever you need to keep your eyes on something else while you listen (such as keeping your eyes on the road while you drive, or on a cutting board while you're preparing food, or on your clippers while you're trimming a hedge). In this way, you can listen to the Bible throughout the day, whenever you don't need to be thinking about something else (such as at your workplace). And you can listen to the Bible even while you're going to sleep, so that it will become part of even your subconscious mind.
 
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i dont believe it was no kind of coincedence but it was the holy spirit speaking to you
and revealing himself to you that he is real.well that was a good testimony be encouraged keep the faith praying for you
anew beggining


by Cheryl Ann Inglett on Tuesday, January 10, 2012 at 5:21am ·

A New Beginning

Any time is a good time to make a new beginning. At any point in your experience, you can make a change, find a new direction, take a new path. You do not need to wait for the beginning of a new year to begin to follow a new way of life.

However, it is sometimes easier to make a new beginning at this time of year, when the old year is drawing to a close, when the new year stretches invitingly before you. There is a spirit of newness in human hearts at this time. You cannot help but feel inspired and enthused by it; you cannot help being caught up in it.

Possibly you have an area in your life that you would like to change or improve. To someone else, your life may seem perfect and complete, but you know the places in your life and heart that call for light and upliftment. The beginning of a new year provides a time and a season for newness, for the changes, inner and outer, that you have dreamed of making but have not yet dared to set into motion.

Do you want improved health and greater strength? This is the time to gain a new understanding of the idea of life. This is the time to realize that God is your life, that your body is the temple of the living God, that God's healing power is active in you, that through this power you are made alive, restored, renewed and healed.

Do you want peace and harmony in your life? Have you longed to be on better terms with your family and friends, to feel closer to others, to be understanding of others, to be understood by them? This is the time to enter into newness, to open your mind and heart to the love of God and to let this love find expression through you in the thoughts you think, in the way you act, in your attitude toward people and situations.

You need not carry into the new year the old habits of thinking and acting that have left you frustrated or unhappy. You need not carry into the new year the old doubts and fears and misgivings, the old hurt and bitterness. You need not bring forward any feeling of unforgiveness. Through the power of God's love within you, you can let go of negative ways of thinking and begin to live in peace and harmony.

This is the time for newness. This is the time to let go of the old, to put on the new. This is the time to let the life and love and light of God flow through you and to shine in all that you do. Old thoughts and old conditions are as “waters that have passed away” (Job 11:16). Now you stand at a place of beginning again.
 
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a powerful way to start the day


by Cheryl Ann Inglett on Tuesday, January 10, 2012 at 5:25am ·

A Powerful Way to Start the Day

It only takes five minutes to start your day with clearing, affirmative prayer to set the intentions for your day and for your life. The affirmations below, when read slowly and thoughtfully, help release any energy that does not contribute to your highest good, opening the way for greater blessings. Read these prayers aloud, pausing after each affirmation to breathe and take the awareness into your heart. When you reach number six, share out loud your fondest hopes, desires or intentions:

  1. I realize there is only One Presence and One Power active in my life and in my world now.

    I AM AWARE AND AWAKE.
    (Pause, breathe, take into your heart.)
  2. Knowing limited thinking and resistance block my awareness of God, I shed and release all false beliefs.

    I AM CLEAR.
    (Pause, breathe, take into your heart.)
  3. I forgive myself and others who appear to have harmed me, releasing all blame and attachment to negative energy that are not for my highest and greatest good.

    I AM FREE.
    (Pause, breathe, take into your heart.)
  4. I take responsibility for my life and call forth my ability to respond in a new way, without guilt or judgment.

    I AM TRANSFORMED NOW.
    (Pause, breathe, take into your heart.)
  5. I surrender and let go of my will—allowing God to express in and through me now.

    I AM ONE WITH GOD.
    (Pause, breathe, take into your heart.)
  6. Knowing with God all things are possible, I declare my heart's desire to the Spirit of God (Holy Spirit).

    I AM RECEPTIVE TO:
    (State your desires as affirmations, knowing they are already on their way to you. See them coming to fruition and say:)
    I ACCEPT.
  7. I give thanks, rejoicing that my heart's dreams, hopes and desires are already fulfilled.

    I AM GRATEFUL.
    (Pause, breathe, take into your heart.)
  8. I commit to be responsive to God's guidance and practice unconditional love. God provides me with total abundance, and I fulfill the purpose for which I am created.

    I AM AT PEACE.
    (Pause, breathe, take into your heart.)
  9. I go forth in joy, trust and enthusiasm. With speed, ease, comfort and joy, all is now fulfilled.

    LET'S CELEBRATE LIFE!
The above exercises can also be completed with a partner or group. Simply read the statements aloud together, and take turns on number six to share your intentions. After each person has spoken, the group together states: “I accept” and continues to read aloud the remaining statements. This process—affirming God, releasing the negative, stating one's intentions, expressing gratitude and celebrating life—prepares the way for ever greater good to come forth in your life.
 
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by Cheryl Ann Inglett on Monday, September 27, 2010 at 1:02pm ·

Friends are true and from god and there is one who sticks closer than a brother his name is jesus when ur sad and blue ill be there by ur side when ur down and lonely ill be there when u need a friend 2 talk 2 day or nite ill be there u can trust me always no matter what u go thru ill be there a friend always sticks by u thru thick and thin when u are feeling sad and blue ill be there friends are forever and for a life time god gives us friends to talk 2 and look up to for us 2 always have friends are forever when we have a friend like you god bless you
 
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This is fantastic! it definitely sounds as though the Holy spirit was speaking to you because you found the words in the bible as well.As long as the purpose is to lead you to Christ,then it will be from God.Although we have to be careful of relying on feelings,that feeling as you read the word is the Lord confirming to you that he is true and to be trusted. Read the bible and pray before each reading for God's guidance and if you read and don't feel anything trust that he still loves you and ; Isaiah;40;31 "they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength" you will experience that peace again.Long for Christ,Desire him in your life more than anything and he will satisfy you more than anything this world can give you.You have already been given a taste of John 14:27.The world cannot possibly give you that peace.
God bless
 
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okiemom, I'm not sure this is the same, but I will relate an experience I had. Many years ago, I awoke during a hot, humid Summer night and could not catch my breath. I immediately knew I was having a severe asthma attack, and I instinctively lunged toward the foot of the bed, near where a phone was on a desk. But in mid-lunge, I realized that I would be dead by the time an ambulance came (I'm in the burbs). All this time I was in terror for not being able to breath. But in that instant, a voice spoke into my mind, saying "if you die, you will be with Jesus forever".

Immediately a deep peace came over me. God did not take away the breathing problem, but in it I came to complete peace. I lay back in the bed, thinking praises and adoration of Him, and within 5 minutes I was sleeping soundly. I never had another asthma attack for many years, until I moved to a problematic location.

Now, if I say to myself that when I die I will be with Jesus, that is nice. But this was different. This was from my spirit, spoken into my mind. I have absolutely no doubt it was from the Throne Room.

Sometimes the Lord will speak to us this way. It's generally a manifestation of the Holy Spirit, in a word of knowledge or word of wisdom. If it spoke of the glories of God, and brought you closer to Him, and imparted His peace to you, it's pretty hard to argue with the fruit.
 
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You said -okiemom, I'm not sure this is the same, but I will relate an experience I had.

But in that instant, a voice spoke into my mind, saying "if you die, you will be with Jesus forever".

Immediately a deep peace came over me.

It sounds a lot like it to me :) I can tell you this, I wanted that feeling to last forever. I suffer from anxiety and panic so for a feeling like that to wash over me the way it did and at such an unexpected time, it was so nice.
 
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Totally normal nothing out of the ordinary when all of a sudden I heard in my head 'I am that I am' it was not a strangers voice, it was like I was thinking to myself I guess you could say.

then I was like, 'Wait, why did I just think that?' I have not read all of the bible and I do not know verses by heart so I went and searched for it and found it in Exodus 3:14. From there I was lead to John 8:58.
I can not explain the feeling that came over me at this moment.
I teared up and was overwhelmed with a sense of peace and comfort.

I kept thinking, God said this in the OT, Jesus said this is the NT.
I know it may seem plain as day to some of you but it was like an eye opener for me and something telling me -You CAN trust this.
Was it a coincidence or was it really the Holy Spirit?
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Feelings are nice, and I don't mean to be harsh, but forget about feelings for the moment. This is unquestionably the Holy Spirit of God, the maker of heaven and earth, the God of Abraham, and of Isaac, and of Jacob; the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who says He is also YOUR God, and YOUR Father.

You KNOW this to be true, and we CAN know this to be true. Not based on feelings, and not based on our own thoughts, but BASED ON HIS HOLY WORD!!

It is the Holy Spirit that testifies of Christ, and that is what happened to you. Unquestionably. Just like this:

"Blessed art thou, Simon Barjona: for flesh and blood hath not revealed [it] unto thee, but my Father which is in heaven." (Matthew 16:17)

This is a Holy seed, planted in you. It needs to be watered (the Word) it needs sunshine (worship / the Lord's Presence / prayer) and any growth at all that comes from this process will be God's doing.

Welcome to the family of God! :hug:
 
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