OK so my story...if you guys havnt seen I had a major sexual addiction problem and had fallen into habitual sin for several years. Having promiscious sex and everything. Last week I confessed all my sins and ask jesus to come into my life and help me. Well I noticed an immediate change in my heart and for about 2 weeks now have changed. I know that is not long but I have thrown out all my inappropriate content and plan on keeping it that way. Problem is I meet a girl about 2 months ago who lives in another city and I really like her. I have had sex with this girl. She was going to visit me this weekend but she had to changed her plans due to her job and is going to visit me in two more weeks. I know now that since I want to live in the lord's path that I am suppose to keep sex until marriage. This is going to be very hard for me. I dont ever want to have primiscious type sex again and only with people whom are care for...but I do know I will miss the mark(sin) if i continue a sexual relation with her. I do care for her and like her and is one of the reasons I went to god because she helped changed my heart...as it was the first girl I meet really in my life that seemed to click with.
I want to see here but I know I shouldnt because of our prior relation. Part of me wants to just tell her that we cant see eachother and to start looking for a christian girl for marriage. I am burning with passion and want to get married..not for sex..it is just my time. I am almost 30 and tired of being alone. I dont want to rush into anything with the wrong girl and I diff dont know if this girl is the one. The hardes thing with this christian path is I feel like you can't date as sex is usually a natuarl part of a relationship. I am torn in my head. At least I got 2 weeks to thinnk on it instead of 2 days.
I want to see here but I know I shouldnt because of our prior relation. Part of me wants to just tell her that we cant see eachother and to start looking for a christian girl for marriage. I am burning with passion and want to get married..not for sex..it is just my time. I am almost 30 and tired of being alone. I dont want to rush into anything with the wrong girl and I diff dont know if this girl is the one. The hardes thing with this christian path is I feel like you can't date as sex is usually a natuarl part of a relationship. I am torn in my head. At least I got 2 weeks to thinnk on it instead of 2 days.