I need encouragement and support (not debate, okay ) It's not that I don't believe in healing by God, because I do, He does, and He has. However, He told me this morning that He is not going to heal me (this time.)
Background... 25 years ago December 1st I was injured in an industrial accident. I've not worked since, and still go to physical therapy and psychotherapy 3x a week to help manage the results of the trauma. While all this year I have felt a "need" to begin to really study (again) and work on my desire for healing (faith building) I have really been actively claiming by faith. (I had been healed from a death bed illness maybe 40 years ago, so I know God heals.)
I had purposely requested God to heal me by or on the anniversary, no strings attached .
But, to me, He was very clear this morning in saying He is not going to heal me. (I haven't had the closeness I had with Him prior to the accident, since the accident, but this was done in the way God shares with me.)
I'm not feeling devastated...but am discouraged. I am also relieved in a way, because it's difficult at best when I say I believe in healing yet have not been healed...trying to share with others who wonder what kind of faith I have etc. Now I can say, God doesn't choose to heal me yet.
(I'm also adding the "yet" even now... though it's done with a different faith experience?)
So.... I need verses to support me. I know God didn't heal Paul though he earnestly asked 3x. (Yes, I believe Paul had a physical/psychological illness...and travelled with a doctor to help him.)
IDK I could use some encouragement. I'd like to know what plans God does have for me, because He hasn't directed me anywhere, and I'm alone in this (except for my doctors, of course.)
Thanks.
Background... 25 years ago December 1st I was injured in an industrial accident. I've not worked since, and still go to physical therapy and psychotherapy 3x a week to help manage the results of the trauma. While all this year I have felt a "need" to begin to really study (again) and work on my desire for healing (faith building) I have really been actively claiming by faith. (I had been healed from a death bed illness maybe 40 years ago, so I know God heals.)
I had purposely requested God to heal me by or on the anniversary, no strings attached .
But, to me, He was very clear this morning in saying He is not going to heal me. (I haven't had the closeness I had with Him prior to the accident, since the accident, but this was done in the way God shares with me.)
I'm not feeling devastated...but am discouraged. I am also relieved in a way, because it's difficult at best when I say I believe in healing yet have not been healed...trying to share with others who wonder what kind of faith I have etc. Now I can say, God doesn't choose to heal me yet.
(I'm also adding the "yet" even now... though it's done with a different faith experience?)
So.... I need verses to support me. I know God didn't heal Paul though he earnestly asked 3x. (Yes, I believe Paul had a physical/psychological illness...and travelled with a doctor to help him.)
IDK I could use some encouragement. I'd like to know what plans God does have for me, because He hasn't directed me anywhere, and I'm alone in this (except for my doctors, of course.)
Thanks.