....just like living.
You all know my story (it is the same old same old), I am going to be 38 in a few months, never been in love and the last guy I dated was many years ago.
No kids, no family cause they disowned me.
Many of other things that i have posted about before.
I am trying so hard to get out of this same old rut, it is hard very hard!
Right now as I type this I am so very angry at God.
I feel like I am totally alone meaning that no one my age is going through what I am going through, they at least have a job, children, hubby and/or their own family (mom, dad and/or sibblings) that love them and this makes life so hard living for me cause I feel like a freak loser who God is making me live on this earth just to laugh at me or something, I really don't know anymore what God is doing to me.
This I know, I have no purpose and I AM taking up space on this earth.
Now that I got my deep feelings out that I have to live with daily that i push way down and pretend that I am someone; I will try to supress this feeling and go on being positive, when really I HATE ME and I am trying hard to change me, REALLY I am but God does not want to bless me. I am an odd one, a freak show to God and society!
You all know my story (it is the same old same old), I am going to be 38 in a few months, never been in love and the last guy I dated was many years ago.
No kids, no family cause they disowned me.
Many of other things that i have posted about before.
I am trying so hard to get out of this same old rut, it is hard very hard!
Right now as I type this I am so very angry at God.
I feel like I am totally alone meaning that no one my age is going through what I am going through, they at least have a job, children, hubby and/or their own family (mom, dad and/or sibblings) that love them and this makes life so hard living for me cause I feel like a freak loser who God is making me live on this earth just to laugh at me or something, I really don't know anymore what God is doing to me.
This I know, I have no purpose and I AM taking up space on this earth.
Now that I got my deep feelings out that I have to live with daily that i push way down and pretend that I am someone; I will try to supress this feeling and go on being positive, when really I HATE ME and I am trying hard to change me, REALLY I am but God does not want to bless me. I am an odd one, a freak show to God and society!