- Oct 17, 2002
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HELP!
Ok I was with this girl Steph for 3 and a half years, at the start I was a bit of a scum bag and cheated on her and did not treat her to good, after a year or so I came to know the lord and so did Steph are relationship changed and I owned up to my wrong doing! I worked hard at the relationship and we both started to move in the right direction. She fully forgave me and I was very sorry for my actions. Anyway over the last year are relationship turned a little sour and we would fight about crazy stuff we were also slipping sexually (not sleeping but going to far) it was becoming hard to be a Christian in the relationship, I was also choosing to spend my spare time with my friends or on my own, I felt a large amount of pressure during the relationship as Steph worshiped the ground I walked on and it was hard living up to her expectations (in my eyes) I new we did not have to many fruits of the sprit! I was also unsure weather I loved Steph or not so 2 months ago I decided to call the relationship off which was very hard for me but far more for Steph who did not see it coming, I thought this would bring me back to GOD and I hoped my feelings would become clearer but alas two months on Im still stringing Steph along and none the wiser I really hate myself for what Im doing to her. I can neither commit nor let her go! I honestly dont know how I feel the thought of other guys dating her makes me sooooooooooo mad and also very sad! Im so worried that unless I here from GOD Im gonna regret what ever decision I make. Im just stuck! And I dont want Steph to hate me because we shared 3 and a half years Im 23 and Steph is 21
ANY help or prayer would be great!
Ok I was with this girl Steph for 3 and a half years, at the start I was a bit of a scum bag and cheated on her and did not treat her to good, after a year or so I came to know the lord and so did Steph are relationship changed and I owned up to my wrong doing! I worked hard at the relationship and we both started to move in the right direction. She fully forgave me and I was very sorry for my actions. Anyway over the last year are relationship turned a little sour and we would fight about crazy stuff we were also slipping sexually (not sleeping but going to far) it was becoming hard to be a Christian in the relationship, I was also choosing to spend my spare time with my friends or on my own, I felt a large amount of pressure during the relationship as Steph worshiped the ground I walked on and it was hard living up to her expectations (in my eyes) I new we did not have to many fruits of the sprit! I was also unsure weather I loved Steph or not so 2 months ago I decided to call the relationship off which was very hard for me but far more for Steph who did not see it coming, I thought this would bring me back to GOD and I hoped my feelings would become clearer but alas two months on Im still stringing Steph along and none the wiser I really hate myself for what Im doing to her. I can neither commit nor let her go! I honestly dont know how I feel the thought of other guys dating her makes me sooooooooooo mad and also very sad! Im so worried that unless I here from GOD Im gonna regret what ever decision I make. Im just stuck! And I dont want Steph to hate me because we shared 3 and a half years Im 23 and Steph is 21
ANY help or prayer would be great!