I also need some help on what to do with my life... I have been around the block as far as life goes.. I tried working and going to school... tried military TWICE I just moved to Florida from Wisconsin for a good job that I support myself on.... and guess what... IM NOT 100% HAPPY!!!??? I live in PARADISE and im not happy? I get to go to the beach and shark fish every weekend! and im still not happy.. its like its all a temporary happiness... I am just not sure what to do and I have been asking God for so long to help me out with this and all that ever comes in my head is rejoining the military and going throw with it... both times i backed out in basic... for my own reasons. So I just don't know... and advice on this as well?
My advice is that you are being too hard on yourself. You know there was a point where I would tell people everything will be fine and what you are going through will fall into place and work itself out. Okay, I still believe that, because I've gone through many things in my life and I felt there was no way out of it, but I got out of it. I got out of it, because I wanted too, because I trusted in God, I trusted the people in my life to push me a little bit more and hold me accountable for my actions and my thoughts. Sometimes, things just get worse, and worse, but do you even think about the small things that make you happy? Any of it? I can name 100 things that are making me happy now, and one thing that isn't, makes the other 100 seem less worth it. And that is not right. Its not right at all. Those things that you said that don't make you happy, well many of us go through as well. We have annoying coworkers, and roommates, and we miss car payments, or don't have a job, live pay check to pay check, and we all go through things that are HARD in life.
My other advice is, make a choice. Whatever that choice is....staying in school, finding a job, walking around the park twice a week for the next year. Make a choice, stick with that choice and see how things change over time. God is listening, but do not closed yourself off to listen to Him.
People can tell you to do a lot of things, people can give you advice, and scream till they get blue in the face, but if YOU don't start doing something about it, nothing will change.