I have a question for all of you. I struggle with blasphemous thoughts severely. Everyone says the answer is to give them no attention and eventually it will go away. Don't know if that will ever happen for me because I've been extremely, severely, sick with this on a daily basis from morning to night for five years and I mean it's constant from morning to night, no break. I've tried every mental methods I can think of, I've gotten professional help and nothing has worked.
My question is this. I try everyday to start out in the morning telling myself over and over and over keep my mind clear, stop all thoughts. Mentally I try to do this. But I can never seem to do it. One thing I noticed is my body is in a complete and very severe misery constant emotions from day to night for five years when I'm dealing with the thoughts which never stops. I think my Ocd part of this is started because of the fear. It's like my body is addicted to the thoughts because of it always being in a state of misery. Basically the thoughts feed the emotions. So it's like my body goes looking for the bad thoughts so it can create the misery. My mind has been in the same state of misery everyday for five years. I dont' know if this makes sense to anyone but I'm trying to figure out a way to somehow let my body be in a calm state which happens when I can stop the thoughts in my mind which I can't seem to do enough to create progression forward.
Anyone have any idea on a method that would help me to overcome the fear emotions my body seems to want because thats the state it's used to being in. I think finding a way to do this could be a very huge step for me in moving forward.
The problem I'm dealing with is the thoughts are not just sin they've become a habit, an addiction physcially which affects my control mentally. This makes it harder because with this you add satan planting the thoughts and the emotions you go thru over fear of the thoughts but at the same time my body phsyically wants the thoughts. So complicated. I've learned that your thoughts create your feelings so if your having bad thougths your feelings will be out of control. The bible says as a man thinks so is he and someone quoted in another message that evil hearts create blasphemy,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,So I must have an evil heart which I agree with this because I have no love of God anymore, fear of him, awe of him, I have nothing and I'm in more trouble spiritually and physically than I've ever been in my life. It's so out of control and the serious consequences I face daily is enough to make me want to end my life because it will never change. I've tried everything and what the professionals told me and nothing works. Everyday I vow to be good and always fail. I've even started having thoughts that I will pray to God and he will forgive thus letting me "get away with it".
This is a horrible thought and I hate life. I'm tired of fighting against myself. The bible also says a house divided against itself cannot stand and I think this fits me perfectly. I just spent the last hour while writing this cursing the hs and the hg in my mind. According to what the bible says there is no forgiveness for me anymore. I've lost all repentace or even being sorry for my sin. I've basically have been taking advantage of my forgiveness and abused the love, mercy, and grace of God. the bible says, once a person comes to the knowledge of the truth and continues to sin there is no more sacrifices for their sin and this also fits me perfectly. I wish I could just die right now, somehow death seems better than this but I know I would go straight to hell so I won't kill myself.
thanks to anyone who may have a reply.
My question is this. I try everyday to start out in the morning telling myself over and over and over keep my mind clear, stop all thoughts. Mentally I try to do this. But I can never seem to do it. One thing I noticed is my body is in a complete and very severe misery constant emotions from day to night for five years when I'm dealing with the thoughts which never stops. I think my Ocd part of this is started because of the fear. It's like my body is addicted to the thoughts because of it always being in a state of misery. Basically the thoughts feed the emotions. So it's like my body goes looking for the bad thoughts so it can create the misery. My mind has been in the same state of misery everyday for five years. I dont' know if this makes sense to anyone but I'm trying to figure out a way to somehow let my body be in a calm state which happens when I can stop the thoughts in my mind which I can't seem to do enough to create progression forward.
Anyone have any idea on a method that would help me to overcome the fear emotions my body seems to want because thats the state it's used to being in. I think finding a way to do this could be a very huge step for me in moving forward.
The problem I'm dealing with is the thoughts are not just sin they've become a habit, an addiction physcially which affects my control mentally. This makes it harder because with this you add satan planting the thoughts and the emotions you go thru over fear of the thoughts but at the same time my body phsyically wants the thoughts. So complicated. I've learned that your thoughts create your feelings so if your having bad thougths your feelings will be out of control. The bible says as a man thinks so is he and someone quoted in another message that evil hearts create blasphemy,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,So I must have an evil heart which I agree with this because I have no love of God anymore, fear of him, awe of him, I have nothing and I'm in more trouble spiritually and physically than I've ever been in my life. It's so out of control and the serious consequences I face daily is enough to make me want to end my life because it will never change. I've tried everything and what the professionals told me and nothing works. Everyday I vow to be good and always fail. I've even started having thoughts that I will pray to God and he will forgive thus letting me "get away with it".
This is a horrible thought and I hate life. I'm tired of fighting against myself. The bible also says a house divided against itself cannot stand and I think this fits me perfectly. I just spent the last hour while writing this cursing the hs and the hg in my mind. According to what the bible says there is no forgiveness for me anymore. I've lost all repentace or even being sorry for my sin. I've basically have been taking advantage of my forgiveness and abused the love, mercy, and grace of God. the bible says, once a person comes to the knowledge of the truth and continues to sin there is no more sacrifices for their sin and this also fits me perfectly. I wish I could just die right now, somehow death seems better than this but I know I would go straight to hell so I won't kill myself.
thanks to anyone who may have a reply.