separated from wife and family

My wife and I are now separated. I have been here alone for four weeks and the pain and anxiety are sometimes unbearable. This being new years eve with her hundreds of miles away is almost overwhelming. How do you just stop loving someone who was your best friend, partner and helpmate. Yes, I have my faith and know that God's will prevails, but the letting go is so very hard. At 52 starting over, financial concerns, the need to find a new job in a new location are all scary, but the hardest part is to stop loving someone when it tears you apart to even think about such as that. We had been married for only a year and a half and evrything seemed to fall apart in one evening. Now, she seems consumed with anger and there is no possibility of communication. PLEASE pray for us. Sorry, no smiley faces here.

For the many kind folks who have prayed for me and for my marriage and responded with such kind notes I send blessings and thanks to all of you. I truly believe that this is a true case of spiritual warfare. Such anger can only come from the enemy and it will take a true act of God to deliver my wife from that bondage.

Last night there was an unexpected though blessed power failure leaving me without heat and light so that I was led to an early bed time where it was just me and God. Some have said it might be God's will for me to be separated from her and that I just need to let her go and give God time. But, honestly, I cannot believe that the current divorce rate of 50% in the U.S. is His will. We here are simply too caught up in the values associated with materialism so that relationships come way down the values list as compared to money and things.

I took a solemn holy oath when I married her and that hasn't changed. I do truly believe that God can change this, but it seems that a true miracle will be required and that is what I am praying for. Meanwhile, I'm also praying for the strength to carry on in a time of overwhelming obstacles.

 Pumping out resumes all day every day is really not what is in my heart and soul, but there are the very real-world issues of the need to personally have some direction and a source of employment REAL soon. Now I'm in western NC and having to look to Atlanta (even further from my SW Virginia home) and cannot begin to see the hope in that.

Your continued prayers in lifting the situation and my wife Lisa to the Lord are greatly appreciated. We both need the spiritual healing and hope to let this be behind us! Your help in this war in the heanlies and storming the gates of the Kingdom with prayer are both invited and appreciated GREATLY. Thanks, Larry

She had a 12 year old and a 14 year old, both of whom I loved very much. It's always hard to be a second father and being "daddy" next to impossible after their first had been killed a few years ago. We had been together for a year and a half. She is Baptist, beyond that I guess it's between her and God. I moved here to my mountain home simply because she changed the locks and I had to be somewhere rather than trying to force the issue and only make her angrier. Legally I could be back there in my home, but practically it would only result in a huge conflict. I still love her very much, but realize that it takes two both loving each other to make a relationship work.

Thank you for the prayers and for just being out there somewhere. What I have realized today is the need to trust in God in this and stand ready to accept His will. That may not necessarily be done as I might hope or prefer, but trusting, loving, and learning to accept His will must be a huge part of what we are about as Christians. I may not understand everything, but He is still God and I don't believe the misfortune is of Him. The incredible hurt is still very real, but if Jesus can say 'thy will be done" so can I, even when it hurts. This isn't denying the pain, angush, loss and bitter disappointment of the sense of betrayal and trust, but God is still God and His love is always constand, even when all else seems to fail.