I have a bad habit of making vows. Even for the most simple daily things I would make vows. Vowing to God that I would do my homework for example. It all started with this.
My vowing habit became much worse. I would vow to God that if i didn't do X he should send me to hell. Eventually I broke that vow and felt very guilty. But i believed in Jesus forgiveness and stopped making vows.
Now several years later. I suddenly got intrusive thoughts making a vow. For example if I was reading a book. Suddenly a thought popped up in my head "I swear to God i never read that book again" It started to become worse. A thought would pop up and vowing all things away that I like. And vowing to do things I never want to do in life. For example living in a country where I don't want to live. I would even make counter vows. So for example when I vowed away a book I read. I would make another vow to keep reading that book.
I started to become extremely worried that i would have to keep these vows. I visited several websites about this topic and they said that I should keep my vows.... But other websites then said there is forgiveness. I even read a topic here but the comments are mixed also. The question is the same as my question.
"If you make a vow, and later break that vow, and then ask God for forgiveness from that vow... would it still be considered breaking the vow if you did what you vowed not do again?"
At the moment I am very depressed. This has been like this for a month... And i still get these intrusive thoughts. But I might have made some vows consciously.... It feels like a curse...
So in short:
But even if there's forgiveness for breaking vows. Do i still have to keep my vows? I don't want to be bound by any vow. I really regret for what I have done.
My vowing habit became much worse. I would vow to God that if i didn't do X he should send me to hell. Eventually I broke that vow and felt very guilty. But i believed in Jesus forgiveness and stopped making vows.
Now several years later. I suddenly got intrusive thoughts making a vow. For example if I was reading a book. Suddenly a thought popped up in my head "I swear to God i never read that book again" It started to become worse. A thought would pop up and vowing all things away that I like. And vowing to do things I never want to do in life. For example living in a country where I don't want to live. I would even make counter vows. So for example when I vowed away a book I read. I would make another vow to keep reading that book.
I started to become extremely worried that i would have to keep these vows. I visited several websites about this topic and they said that I should keep my vows.... But other websites then said there is forgiveness. I even read a topic here but the comments are mixed also. The question is the same as my question.
"If you make a vow, and later break that vow, and then ask God for forgiveness from that vow... would it still be considered breaking the vow if you did what you vowed not do again?"
At the moment I am very depressed. This has been like this for a month... And i still get these intrusive thoughts. But I might have made some vows consciously.... It feels like a curse...
So in short:
But even if there's forgiveness for breaking vows. Do i still have to keep my vows? I don't want to be bound by any vow. I really regret for what I have done.
