Hello, Im new to these forums. Sorry this is my first post on these forums, but Ive been looking for advice and Im not comfortable with talking to people I know in person about this stuff yet.
I have this constant feeling, a feeling of doubt or of being unsure or something. When I question my faith in God and in Christ, I tell myself that Im obviously a Christian. I even look back to a moment in my life when I feel like that was the moment I was saved, as it was a moment when I first truly understood the meaning of the New Testament. Ive told myself that I have received the Holy Spirit. Yet for some reason that I dont understand I feel uneasy about my life in general.
I just graduated from high school and I feel uneasy about moving on into the real world, so maybe that plays in to this a little bit. Im also pretty anti-social and I only have 2 or 3 friends and I dont really see them outside of school, which is now over. I get along fine with my family, but its not like were really close or anything. We all kind of do our own thing for the most part, but I know we love each other. Still, I dont know why I feel uneasy all the time. I tell myself Im saved, but Im questioning it all the time, for pretty much no reason at all. This uncertainty is completely unreasonable and it makes me really angry that its there at all. I wonder why I have this problem assuming Im truly saved. I have no hostile feelings towards God, but I still wonder why I cant be happy.
I used to have some anger issues in the past, and I also used to be pretty open with people as well. Over the past year or so Ive become ashamed of how I used to act and Ive tried to become more stoic in various ways. I think maybe I have overdone this and have identified with that personality too much. I dont feel much of anything anymore besides a persisting frustration. I can act happy in front of my friends, and I sometimes do feel happy. But when Im by myself the only thing I do is annoy myself with my constant thinking. Its like Im driving myself nuts with my various thoughts and this stupid persisting uneasiness.
I pray every night and I started reading a chapter or more of the Bible every night to look for answers. I think Im a decently smart guy who usually has a handle on things, but Im frustrated that I dont seem to be getting anywhere. I wonder if the devil is just screwing with me or something, but then I wonder why this can happen to me if I work so hard to get closer to God.
General advice would be appreciated. If you happen to know of any useful Bible verses Id like to read them too. Hopefully something can apply, but I dont know much about the Bible yet so I dont really know where to look for help.
I have this constant feeling, a feeling of doubt or of being unsure or something. When I question my faith in God and in Christ, I tell myself that Im obviously a Christian. I even look back to a moment in my life when I feel like that was the moment I was saved, as it was a moment when I first truly understood the meaning of the New Testament. Ive told myself that I have received the Holy Spirit. Yet for some reason that I dont understand I feel uneasy about my life in general.
I just graduated from high school and I feel uneasy about moving on into the real world, so maybe that plays in to this a little bit. Im also pretty anti-social and I only have 2 or 3 friends and I dont really see them outside of school, which is now over. I get along fine with my family, but its not like were really close or anything. We all kind of do our own thing for the most part, but I know we love each other. Still, I dont know why I feel uneasy all the time. I tell myself Im saved, but Im questioning it all the time, for pretty much no reason at all. This uncertainty is completely unreasonable and it makes me really angry that its there at all. I wonder why I have this problem assuming Im truly saved. I have no hostile feelings towards God, but I still wonder why I cant be happy.
I used to have some anger issues in the past, and I also used to be pretty open with people as well. Over the past year or so Ive become ashamed of how I used to act and Ive tried to become more stoic in various ways. I think maybe I have overdone this and have identified with that personality too much. I dont feel much of anything anymore besides a persisting frustration. I can act happy in front of my friends, and I sometimes do feel happy. But when Im by myself the only thing I do is annoy myself with my constant thinking. Its like Im driving myself nuts with my various thoughts and this stupid persisting uneasiness.
I pray every night and I started reading a chapter or more of the Bible every night to look for answers. I think Im a decently smart guy who usually has a handle on things, but Im frustrated that I dont seem to be getting anywhere. I wonder if the devil is just screwing with me or something, but then I wonder why this can happen to me if I work so hard to get closer to God.
General advice would be appreciated. If you happen to know of any useful Bible verses Id like to read them too. Hopefully something can apply, but I dont know much about the Bible yet so I dont really know where to look for help.