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Hi everyone..I'm new here - since Wednesday, actually.. I thought I'd stop being rude and introduce myself! My name is Kaytee, I'm a singer/songwriter, currently working on my EP which I'm not sure when will be released.. My screen name is 'believer419' because i believe that God will provide us with all of our needs, as He promised in Philippians 4:19.. I'm from Australia, and I am medicated for Bipolar Disorder.

I found this forum when I was desperate to find other Christians who I could relate to and who could understand me..and a place where I could have Christian support, and be able to support other Christians who I can support and understand...instead of suffering pretty much in silence..

Recently I've been having a very difficult time..I've gone from having extreme highs one week, to this past week being extreme lows.. On Wednesday, I thought taking a heap of pills would knock me out for a few hours, just numbing the pain - putting me to sleep for a bit, to wake up later and it would all be okay..instead I ended up in the emergency ward in hospital..

I realised afterward how I had almost given the enemy a win..and I felt so stupid, shameful, and guilty..... I guess the best way to explain it, would be to copy half of the email I sent my (super supportive!) boyfriend last night after I woke up and he'd been trying to call multiple times, concerned about me..

***** half of the email - i wrote:
"I realise now the danger of doing what I did. I got more than I bargained for. Know that I wasn't thrill-seeking, nor attention-seeking, and I most definitely didn't want to kill myself or do the damage which I possibly have. That was not my intention. I honestly did just want to 'check out' for a while..not have to think about anything or any of the pain of being so low..
But I see now, the kind of ripple effect it's had on those closest to me...and I am really sorry. My parents were sooo good through it all, and I love them so much.. Mum and I are going to see my doctor either this afternoon or next week... We're going to sort this out...please be praying..

I was falling asleep after our phone call at 2ish this morning..and was feeling like I'd just ruined so much in my life - from doing something I completely regret. I feel like, even if you still care about me and all, there's probably a little part of you that now doubts me..and doesn't see me the way you did before...and that's not what I want...because who that was, was not me. I take responsibility for my actions..but the person doing that was so far from the real Kaytee - the person you know.
So, after the call, I was laying there, telling God how sorry I was.. I didn't ever want to give the enemy a win..
I was pretty mixed up, kinda hating on myself.. disappointed in MYSELF.. I didn't ever want to let God down -out of everyone in my life... I told Him that, and how sorry I was..and you know what!? It was so amazing - at that moment, I felt a warmth all around me, and it was like he was lying there with His arms around me..and I swear I could hear and feel His heart beating with mine- physically.. I can't even explain it!
So, just lying there, with His arms around me, I felt no bit of condemnation or anger..instead, i felt total forgiveness, compassion, mercy and complete love... He gave me peace in my heart.. He restored my heart, it was amazing - i hadn't experienced Him like this for a while... And He just calmed me as I fell asleep.. I was forgiven..and my shame was taken away..
1 John 3:19-20 "This is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in His presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is GREATER than our hearts, and He knows everything."
..

2 Corinthians 5:17 "If anyone is in Christ, He is a new creation - the old has passed and the new has come!"

He is so full of grace and love...and I'm amazed...that He could love me so much and give His Son for me so I could be forgiven and set free..... I love Him so much..and I never wanted to hurt Him.
I never meant to hurt anyone. I really am sorry. And I won't let it happen again - I've learnt my lesson! And from now on, the enemy does not get a hold of my thoughts! They're God's. This verse just popped into my head- 2 Corinthians 10:5 "Overthrow reasonings and every high thing that lifts itself up against the knowledge of God. Lead every thought captive into the obedience of Christ.".... I think I'll stick that one on my wall..it should be like my life verse -or at least one of them..

Anyway, I've been given the advice not to dwell on yesterday..to accept that I'm forgiven and that Jesus loves me same -yesterday, today and forever.."
*****

Jesus is the reason I have any hope in this world..He's the only One who's held me and loved me unconditionally throughout my life, through all the highs and all the lows.. He is my one true Saviour..

I'd love to get to know those of you on this site; to know your stories of hardship and breakthrough.. And I'd love to be able to pray for you..

Please shoot me a message, write to me, ask me something, whatever and whenever you feel like it! - if you want prayer for something, or to share something with me..anything. I will be completely honest and am not judgemental in the least-- I am more compassionate and empathetic!

I'll probably be spending a bit more time on here reading others' threads and whatnot.. This forum really is something I need.. I rarely find other Christians who I can relate to.. I'm so thankful for all of you.

Be blessed!
Until we meet:)

Kaytee x
 

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Hello Kaytee,

I am not on very much. It is just because I tend to shut people out and I am working on fixing that. I just wanted to welcome you... This is truely a great site! There are so very many great people here too. I also have bipolar, ultra rapid cycling and Anxiety disorder. Anyway welcome and even though feedback around this section is slow, I hope you continue to come back and share. Sometimes it just helps to get it all out and know Christian people who really care are there for you and on your side!

God Bless,

Bipolarbear :)
 
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Hi everyone..I'm new here - since Wednesday, actually.. I thought I'd stop being rude and introduce myself! My name is Kaytee, I'm a singer/songwriter, currently working on my EP which I'm not sure when will be released.. My screen name is 'believer419' because i believe that God will provide us with all of our needs, as He promised in Philippians 4:19.. I'm from Australia, and I am medicated for Bipolar Disorder.

I found this forum when I was desperate to find other Christians who I could relate to and who could understand me..and a place where I could have Christian support, and be able to support other Christians who I can support and understand...instead of suffering pretty much in silence..

Recently I've been having a very difficult time..I've gone from having extreme highs one week, to this past week being extreme lows.. On Wednesday, I thought taking a heap of pills would knock me out for a few hours, just numbing the pain - putting me to sleep for a bit, to wake up later and it would all be okay..instead I ended up in the emergency ward in hospital..

I realised afterward how I had almost given the enemy a win..and I felt so stupid, shameful, and guilty..... I guess the best way to explain it, would be to copy half of the email I sent my (super supportive!) boyfriend last night after I woke up and he'd been trying to call multiple times, concerned about me..

***** half of the email - i wrote:
"I realise now the danger of doing what I did. I got more than I bargained for. Know that I wasn't thrill-seeking, nor attention-seeking, and I most definitely didn't want to kill myself or do the damage which I possibly have. That was not my intention. I honestly did just want to 'check out' for a while..not have to think about anything or any of the pain of being so low..
But I see now, the kind of ripple effect it's had on those closest to me...and I am really sorry. My parents were sooo good through it all, and I love them so much.. Mum and I are going to see my doctor either this afternoon or next week... We're going to sort this out...please be praying..

I was falling asleep after our phone call at 2ish this morning..and was feeling like I'd just ruined so much in my life - from doing something I completely regret. I feel like, even if you still care about me and all, there's probably a little part of you that now doubts me..and doesn't see me the way you did before...and that's not what I want...because who that was, was not me. I take responsibility for my actions..but the person doing that was so far from the real Kaytee - the person you know.
So, after the call, I was laying there, telling God how sorry I was.. I didn't ever want to give the enemy a win..
I was pretty mixed up, kinda hating on myself.. disappointed in MYSELF.. I didn't ever want to let God down -out of everyone in my life... I told Him that, and how sorry I was..and you know what!? It was so amazing - at that moment, I felt a warmth all around me, and it was like he was lying there with His arms around me..and I swear I could hear and feel His heart beating with mine- physically.. I can't even explain it!
So, just lying there, with His arms around me, I felt no bit of condemnation or anger..instead, i felt total forgiveness, compassion, mercy and complete love... He gave me peace in my heart.. He restored my heart, it was amazing - i hadn't experienced Him like this for a while... And He just calmed me as I fell asleep.. I was forgiven..and my shame was taken away..
1 John 3:19-20 "This is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in His presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is GREATER than our hearts, and He knows everything."
..

2 Corinthians 5:17 "If anyone is in Christ, He is a new creation - the old has passed and the new has come!"

He is so full of grace and love...and I'm amazed...that He could love me so much and give His Son for me so I could be forgiven and set free..... I love Him so much..and I never wanted to hurt Him.
I never meant to hurt anyone. I really am sorry. And I won't let it happen again - I've learnt my lesson! And from now on, the enemy does not get a hold of my thoughts! They're God's. This verse just popped into my head- 2 Corinthians 10:5 "Overthrow reasonings and every high thing that lifts itself up against the knowledge of God. Lead every thought captive into the obedience of Christ.".... I think I'll stick that one on my wall..it should be like my life verse -or at least one of them..

Anyway, I've been given the advice not to dwell on yesterday..to accept that I'm forgiven and that Jesus loves me same -yesterday, today and forever.."
*****

Jesus is the reason I have any hope in this world..He's the only One who's held me and loved me unconditionally throughout my life, through all the highs and all the lows.. He is my one true Saviour..

I'd love to get to know those of you on this site; to know your stories of hardship and breakthrough.. And I'd love to be able to pray for you..

Please shoot me a message, write to me, ask me something, whatever and whenever you feel like it! - if you want prayer for something, or to share something with me..anything. I will be completely honest and am not judgemental in the least-- I am more compassionate and empathetic!

I'll probably be spending a bit more time on here reading others' threads and whatnot.. This forum really is something I need.. I rarely find other Christians who I can relate to.. I'm so thankful for all of you.

Be blessed!
Until we meet:)

Kaytee x


G'day from W.A,

Great to hear from you - even better to hear that you know Jesus lives in you - through The Word and in Love - to follow Him is all that matters, for He wants to take us away from our bad lives and bring us back good life in the new!


Isn't it frustrating when we do silly things? I once ate from an extremely poisonous plant to 'cure' my palpitating heart and ended up in emergency. The crazy thoughts that we follow at times - yet this makes God truth even more useful to us, for The Truth heeded in love For God, self and neighbour sets us free - Jesus The Son of God - The Living Word!


Let's praise and follow only Him :hug::hug::hug:


Gerry:wave:
 
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Hi Gerry!

Thankyou very much for your uplifting words.. I appreciate knowing that there are other Christians who have experienced/are experiencing what I go through.. It just shows how much grace God has!

I am doing alright at the moment..trying to stay strong...it's a bit hard at the moment with current situations, but all will be okay :)

Hope you're well!

Kaytee :)
 
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Hi Gerry!

Thankyou very much for your uplifting words.. I appreciate knowing that there are other Christians who have experienced/are experiencing what I go through.. It just shows how much grace God has!

I am doing alright at the moment..trying to stay strong...it's a bit hard at the moment with current situations, but all will be okay :)

Hope you're well!

Kaytee :)



You are most welcome:wave:
 
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