I want to sin

Most of my life I have followed orders and followed the rules. I am depressed because I have lived such a shelter life that I want to do what everyone else is doing. I know this isnt the way to do. I am educated and knowledgeable to know this. At the same time I WANT to do the things they are doing, getting drunk and things of that nature. I feel so out of place with everyone else that I just want to ruin my life because I am so bored with it. I have not much else besides school work. What is going on? I am trying to be a good Christian for everyone else, including myself. My friends regard me as religious but what they don't know is that I want to ruin my life just to have fun...

The campus I go to is very clique. Its hard to find a group of boys and girls to hang out and have a normal time that is the right way to live as a christain. Its hard to get rid of these urges because I am lonely, so bored and sick of being goody goody. LEAVE ME SATAN!!

What should I do to distract myself from these things?

Hey there,
I kind of know what you mean, as I too have always done my best to follow the "straight and narrow" and have never been drunk or smoked or anything at all considered rebelling. I don't really ever want to drink or smoke or anything though, but sometimes I think "man I've never done anything crazy or wild", but I have heard from some who have lived like that, and looking back they tend to regret what it has done to their lives.

I know the urge happens sometimes, but just keep going the right path, it will be very much worth it in the end, much more worth doing any drugs or wild stuff could ever do.

I can tell you that I have gone the other way and what you think will make you happy usually doesn't. You'll just feel suffering in the end. It's such a setup, almost like a trap that's been painstakingly setup and then a the last moment the walls of the trap close in on you and you and you're thinking to yourself: Well you know maybe this wasn't the right decision.

If I could have avoided those experiences with the knowledge I have now I would rather have avoided them. It's just such a deception modern culture and what they say will make you happy. Jesus is the only way to peace, hope and happiness, everything else is just mostly a lie.

l0v3n said:

Most of my life I have followed orders and followed the rules. I am depressed because I have lived such a shelter life that I want to do what everyone else is doing. I know this isnt the way to do. I am educated and knowledgeable to know this. At the same time I WANT to do the things they are doing, getting drunk and things of that nature. I feel so out of place with everyone else that I just want to ruin my life because I am so bored with it. I have not much else besides school work. What is going on? I am trying to be a good Christian for everyone else, including myself. My friends regard me as religious but what they don't know is that I want to ruin my life just to have fun...

The campus I go to is very clique. Its hard to find a group of boys and girls to hang out and have a normal time that is the right way to live as a christain. Its hard to get rid of these urges because I am lonely, so bored and sick of being goody goody. LEAVE ME SATAN!!

What should I do to distract myself from these things?

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You seem to have a life which has the following choices: good and boring or sinful and exciting.

I suggest you put your intelligence to work, to determine how you can have good and exciting. It is certainly possible to have an interesting, fulfilled and exciting life, without going the route of sin. You might care to start by finding others who are less blessed than you are, and helping them in some way.

I wish you well.

Jesus said he came to give is abundant life. But that's not what is taught in many places. You are crying to live. That is a natural cry of someone created to be an image bearer of God who has never been presented with Christian teaching that tells us what it means to be truly human. Jesus, contrary to much popular teaching, did not come in order to get us into Heaven, but to restore to us our humanity lost at the Fall.

I love what C S Lewis wrote:

[FONT=&quot] The New Testament has lots to say about denial, but not about self denial as an end in itself. We[/FONT][FONT=&quot] [/FONT][FONT=&quot]are told to deny ourselves and to take up our crosses in order that we may follow Christ; and nearly every description of what we shall ultimately find if we do so contains an appeal to desire. If there lurks in most modem minds the notion that to desire our own good and earnestly to hope for the enjoyment of, it is a bad thing, I submit that this notion has crept in from Kant, and the Stoics and is no part of the Christian faith. Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to' go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are too easily pleased.[/FONT]

Feel free to PM me if you want to follow up on this line of thinking.

John
NZ

You should change your beliefs about the world's value on having fun versus the narrow Christian path equates a bleak and dull life. This attitude in itself is destructive.

Your situation reminds of this scripture :
"My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,' says the Lord.
'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-93
This scripture reminds us there is God's way or man's way. But God knows best for you.

Meditating on the Word of God will help you re-focus on what is important.
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

Having said all this, I can relate to you, I also find it hard when i hear and see others enjoying themselves going to parties and getting drunk, hooking up and so forth. But I think about this and feel that way of approaching life is wasteful and without purpose. If you want to live a more purposeful Christian life , then go and help others, volunteer in ministry in missions.. Get out there join a bible group and join Christian friends who can stand by you and prayer for you and vice versa. Life is what you make it, so get out there and do good works for Christ.

Such Great advice sister. we all could use this reminder from time to time

Eurasia said:

You should change your beliefs about the world's value on having fun versus the narrow Christian path equates a bleak and dull life. This attitude in itself is destructive.

Your situation reminds of this scripture :
"My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,' says the Lord.
'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-93
This scripture reminds us there is God's way or man's way. But God knows best for you.

Meditating on the Word of God will help you re-focus on what is important.
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

Having said all this, I can relate to you, I also find it hard when i hear and see others enjoying themselves going to parties and getting drunk, hooking up and so forth. But I think about this and feel that way of approaching life is wasteful and without purpose. If you want to live a more purposeful Christian life , then go and help others, volunteer in ministry in missions.. Get out there join a bible group and join Christian friends who can stand by you and prayer for you and vice versa. Life is what you make it, so get out there and do good works for Christ.

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Is the point of this that you want to get drunk - or just meet people in a different setting?

THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!! I really mean it

l0v3n, it seems like you are mostly lonely... So, instead of being a Christian by doing the things the Word tells you, perhaps focus a bit more on the relationship you have with God and based on His love for you, ask in faith that He will bring good friends into your life with similar values.

The most valueble thing you've done, was ASKING...

12 years ago, it never crossed my mind to ask for advice. I was a typical "Christian" brought up in a typical Christian home.. safe. When i finished High School i left home to go study, and from onset my life became a downwards spiral...

I had intercourse with almost any semi-presentable man that looked my way; i drank more than i needed to quench my thirst, yet never felt satisfied, but more hurt and broken; i smoked............. And yes, i had MANY friends...

Point is, NONE OF IT WAS WORTH IT!! The damage done to my soul was immeasureable, the ungodly soulties created was hard to break, getting free from the nicotine addiction took me 3 years after my conversion... It's a struggle to get out of the bottomless pit we tend to throw ourselves in by believing the lies satan sells us (he even uses the media in ads, the news, movies, etc)

Absolutely NOTHING beats the joy and peace that comes from an intimate relationship with God through the Holy Spirit... You are a Christian, because there's a calling on your life, something you feel passionate about... Ask God for clarity and guidance, and then persue it... Jesus came that we may have JOY!!! (See John 15:11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.) Hold on to this promise, because if that is what Jesus said, its ABSOLUTE TRUTH!!!

Be blessed!

PS. After tasting the peace and joy found in the presence of the Lord, the ungodly friendships started to matter less and those friendships ended... He blessed me with a handful of very precious godly friends; less in quantity but sooooo much more in quality.