How long since you last self injured? (3)

Well done!!!
You are doing brilliantly.. keep going.

Tundras said:

Eight days. Finally.

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Yay!!!!

Two days.

TomCS said:

Two days.

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That's good, well done
Keep going, Tom, one day at a time

TomCS said:

Two days.

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That's great! Every day is an accomplishment!

4 weeks today for me.

Well done sweetie!!
4 weeks is awesome

5 minutes.

STAYING_STRONG4HIM said:

5 minutes.

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5 minutes is still an accomplishment! Hoping you get through this rough patch. It DOES get better!

STAYING_STRONG4HIM said:

5 minutes.

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Sometimes 5 minutes at a time is all we can manage, sweetie.
Don't give up, just ignore the bump in the road and keep going, k?

How can I ignore it? I see what I did, and it makes me hate myself even more.

2 days ago but I didn't set out to hurt myself much but I accidently cut myself while self injuring myself. In 18 yrs. I had never hurt myself that bad as I did Tues. night. I lost so much blood, I still have no energy and am sleepy. What do you do when you go too far and don't want to go to a dr. or let anyone know what happened. I was too ashamed to tell anyone what really happened. I was totally wrong, I found out the hard way, I can't always control how much. It's scary when I prayed through the night that I'd wake up. What do you do when you get hurt alot more than you bargained for and ashamed to get help? e-mail me if you can't post it

alilsa - I'm sorry that you went "too far" and are suffering even more because of it now.

I'm not a medical professional and don't even pretend to know enough about first aid to be very helpful, but I would highly recommend at least cleaning the wound well and closing it with steri-strips. This will help prevent infection and will aid in healing.

That said, please try not to feel ashamed. You shouldn't judge yourself and others shouldn't judge you, either. SI is a coping mechanism - even if it isn't a healthy one. As hard as it may be, reaching out to someone for healthier coping mechanisms is a step in the right direction, even if you just start out with an online resource or a hotline so you can maintain your privacy and anonymity.

If you continue to feel lethargic and sleepy, PLEASE seek immediate medical assistance. Your life is precious. Lifting you up in prayer.

Two minutes ago, boy do I hit hard. That will leave a bruise.

I'm sorry Tom. I'm praying for you.

alilsa said:

2 days ago but I didn't set out to hurt myself much but I accidently cut myself while self injuring myself. In 18 yrs. I had never hurt myself that bad as I did Tues. night. I lost so much blood, I still have no energy and am sleepy. What do you do when you go too far and don't want to go to a dr. or let anyone know what happened. I was too ashamed to tell anyone what really happened. I was totally wrong, I found out the hard way, I can't always control how much. It's scary when I prayed through the night that I'd wake up. What do you do when you get hurt alot more than you bargained for and ashamed to get help? e-mail me if you can't post it

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Sweetie, you don't need to be ashamed. I know that is easy to say... and I still have those feelings, but.. you are dealing with your pain in the best way you can find.
I don't know what makes you need to harm yourself, but, it may be worth looking into therapy if you haven't already. SI is a response... and until the trigger is dealt with, it is very very hard to stop.

If you hurt yourself seriously sweetie, you do need to get it seen to. I know this is wrong, but... to be honest, my response in the past has been to lie... depending where you cut, i have had 'accidents with sharp cans' 'slipped whilst shaving my legs'.... and burnt myself on the oven so often I expect them to ban me from cooking!!!
The other thing to remember is that the doctor has seen it all before... s/he is unlikely to be shocked or judgemental.

I think sometimes we can feel ashamed that we are 'still doing it' as we get older, so many people think only teenagers SI.
If you need someone to talk to, sweetie, please PM me
And hang in there... we *can* get over this.

TomCS said:

Two minutes ago, boy do I hit hard. That will leave a bruise.

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((((((Tom)))))))
Sorry it's so hard.

I actually can't remember. About two months ago. I've been doing this for around four years now (That's actually a bit of a shock..this last year has passed so quickly), and I was so proud of myself when I realised, since me and my partner have been having a few troubles lately (he was flirting with another girl and lied to me about it), yet I didn't self harm over it.

undonebymercy said:

I actually can't remember. About two months ago. I've been doing this for around four years now (That's actually a bit of a shock..this last year has passed so quickly), and I was so proud of myself when I realised, since me and my partner have been having a few troubles lately (he was flirting with another girl and lied to me about it), yet I didn't self harm over it.

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That's wonderful... well done!! Facing a stressful situation without going back to the old, unhealthy coping strategies is a really big step
Thanks for sharing... it's a great encouragement to those of us still fighting this daily to know that others have got past it.

about 3 days ago

Ella

AtomicsAsylum said:

about 3 days ago

Ella

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I'm glad you've made it about 3 days since then - that is something to rejoice over.