A little background info: I've been raised in a christian family all my life. I grew up attending church regularly twice a week, sundays and wednesdays. I dont believe i really accepted Christ until my freshmen yr in college, but have been struggling with my faith since then. I have struggled with masturbation and inappropriate content, since I was a freshmen in high school. I dont think I was serious about christianity before college because i felt it was forced on me through my parents. My father was very strict growing up. Anyway i've just had many problems happening more recently. My sophomore year in college, i got into drinking and partying did that up until the beginning of this year, where i realized something needed to change. I remember feeling depressed with life and having a bunch of physical ailments, so i decided that i needed to get connected with a church. While i completely stopped partying and drinking less, i started smoking marijuana. I started smoking on halloween of 2008 and smoked a few of times up until new years. Then i stopped for a while, then started doing it once every two weeks, then pretty soon it was every weekend. Up until march and april, i smoked consecutively for 2 weeks out of the month. anyway to make a long story short i stopped for 6 months, but fell back into it 2 weeks ago. But been having problems before that, that caused me to use it again. I've recently had chronic stress and anxiety and have felt a slew of physical ailments and mental anguish. I've gone to the doctor for many things and of course everything came back normal. So i understand its something spiritual in nature. I've never had trials this bad before. It's really difficult, especially since this is my last year in college. I feel like i've use marijuana as a crutch for covering up problems. I understand that i have to stop smoking, which i dont think will be hard once i fix the problem that im trying to mask. I'm not sure whether this anxiety that i have is because i've been hiding this inappropriate content problem or because im depressed. I'm just not sure, but i know i need alot of prayer. I fell like i hit rock bottom. I know that this anxiety is an evil spirit, i know that i've always been an anxious person, but it feels like its inhibiting my daily life. I know that God can take it away from me.