Im sure there have been many threads like this one im sorry I didnt have time to go through them. And feel free to close this one if there are too many like this.
Well im 17 hormones are running wild and ive been a christian for 2 years. I was saved by jesus from basically heavy drug addiction and suicide and been basically on fire since then. Ive been prophecised over to be a pastor and an evangelist many times and (without wanting to sound braggy) feel I have a big call on my life.
Lately I feel like I have just been weakening in terms of sexual purity while ive never actually committed an act it feels like I really want too. And I lead girls on and stuff.
The thing that is really troubling me is that not that I stumble, but im not getting any better at stopping. I have read books like Every young mans battle but I feel like there is something inside me that is like holding me back from being pure. Its like there is something in me that doesnt want to be pure that I would rather have a life of sexual immorality.
I lived without god for 15 years and it was horrible I fear that the longer it takes for me to fully repent and to turn away from these ways the more jeopidised my destiny with god becomes and the less blessings he has for my life.
I feel really condemned not because of the acts im doing but rather the mindset im in that is almost like I dont want to live a life of sexual purity. Like its hard to explain I do but I dont.
Sorry that was probably confusing and I apoligise im sure topics like these have been covered hundreds of times.
Well im 17 hormones are running wild and ive been a christian for 2 years. I was saved by jesus from basically heavy drug addiction and suicide and been basically on fire since then. Ive been prophecised over to be a pastor and an evangelist many times and (without wanting to sound braggy) feel I have a big call on my life.
Lately I feel like I have just been weakening in terms of sexual purity while ive never actually committed an act it feels like I really want too. And I lead girls on and stuff.
The thing that is really troubling me is that not that I stumble, but im not getting any better at stopping. I have read books like Every young mans battle but I feel like there is something inside me that is like holding me back from being pure. Its like there is something in me that doesnt want to be pure that I would rather have a life of sexual immorality.
I lived without god for 15 years and it was horrible I fear that the longer it takes for me to fully repent and to turn away from these ways the more jeopidised my destiny with god becomes and the less blessings he has for my life.
I feel really condemned not because of the acts im doing but rather the mindset im in that is almost like I dont want to live a life of sexual purity. Like its hard to explain I do but I dont.
Sorry that was probably confusing and I apoligise im sure topics like these have been covered hundreds of times.