Don't be sorry, I don't want anyone to be sorry and as for the forgiveness thing other people post about, no one here has anything I need to forgive them of. As for my priest, it's 'too late', I'm not really angry at him or anything, that is not what made me not Christian, it was realizing it was untenable for me.
It's already gone, I've already left. I've been pagan most of my life, and it's probably not the same thing you experienced, it's not empty anyway: For most people "pagan" means something that is popularly believed to be ancient, has no theology or concrete ethics or history, but is not (which is what Wicca, "witchcraft" and all that gunk are), which has nothing to do with what I talk of. I've tried praying and the only thing that happens is god tells me to pray to him and reminds me that he's already made things quite clear, in ways Jesus never has, and I know to go back is basically suicide.