The only thing I'm lacking is confidence

That is the only thing I really need. All I am is Shy and Self-Conscious and it is why I'm failing my grade and lacking close friendship with my "friends".
I would definitely talk alot more if I just had confidence.
Please help. I need this so much and nothing else matters anymore.

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I remember that I was always shy of grown ups but never of kids my age really. And I guess the people with such huge egos shook mine...or the tough ones. I don't know how to really stand up for myself properly in fear of getting talked back to and not being able what to reply with in a witty manner like some do. So I just shut up for a while. I only end up talking a lot when I'm very nervous, and end up doing things I would usually never do when relaxed. That was today. I just hate how I'm so insecure and I keep embarrassing myself in front of Marco. I'm not sure what he really thinks but I do think he thinks I'm a little strange and kinda "out there" because I sorta "hide" from him everytime he is near me(insecurities, big time). I like him and he is a good guy and I hate myself because he probably notices a lot of the things I do when he's around. He knows that I "Never Talk", and I wish he would only catch me when I actually am talking and being bubbly and funny. God I wish I could act normal when around him, i really do hope I'm just exaggerating all of what I think he thinks but I don't know...I want to start all over so much. I've talked to him before but it all stopped because it wasn't going anywhere with my insecurities.
The biggest problem that causes me to be so quiet is because well I literally have nothing to say as other people always do. I want to always know what to say to everything... I also have trouble with putting my words together and have to think about what I say for a while..
I am 16 and 17 on October.
God it really hurts that I'm too shy to hug him or flirt with him like normal god he is such a good person and I'm not able to have him in my life i feel terrible i can't help that i always end up embarrassing myself...just, so weird so weird so weird:/

Sibs said:

Where you always this way or did something happen that shook your confiedence? If you don't mind knowing how old you are may help people respond with more focus to you heartfelt question. Chin up

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I remember that I was always shy of grown ups but never of kids my age really. And I guess the people with such huge egos shook mine...or the tough ones. I don't know how to really stand up for myself properly in fear of getting talked back to and not being able what to reply with in a witty manner like some do. So I just shut up for a while. I only end up talking a lot when I'm very nervous, and end up doing things I would usually never do when relaxed. That was today. I just hate how I'm so insecure and I keep embarrassing myself in front of Marco. I'm not sure what he really thinks but I do think he thinks I'm a little strange and kinda "out there" because I sorta "hide" from him everytime he is near me(insecurities, big time). I like him and he is a good guy and I hate myself because he probably notices a lot of the things I do when he's around. He knows that I "Never Talk", and I wish he would only catch me when I actually am talking and being bubbly and funny. God I wish I could act normal when around him, i really do hope I'm just exaggerating all of what I think he thinks but I don't know...I want to start all over so much. I've talked to him before but it all stopped because it wasn't going anywhere with my insecurities.
The biggest problem that causes me to be so quiet is because well I literally have nothing to say as other people always do. I want to always know what to say to everything... I also have trouble with putting my words together and have to think about what I say for a while..
I am 16 and 17 on October.
God it really hurts that I'm too shy to hug him or flirt with him like normal god he is such a good person and I'm not able to have him in my life i feel terrible i can't help that i always end up embarrassing myself...just, so weird so weird so weird:/

oh and great my "friend"(he's a guy and he brings me closer to marco) doesn't even wanna reply to me on myspace anymore so that's pretty much great. they don't want anything to do with me and i don't blame them.
perfect. exactly what i thought would happen all the negatives are there but no positives which i hoped and prayed for. why wont he talk to me anymore...no, i know.

Sometimes I feel like I want to be a huge brat aroundmarco because I feel like it's the only way I'll ever be able to talk to him...but then again that's not good at all. But what is? I wish there was a psychic around here somewhere so I'll know what to do, or if anything will work out...just so I wont put so much hope into it anymore and be disappointed. Yes, psychics are and such are against god I know but I think God just wants it all like this and who am I to stop him, he can do whatever he wants..