has anyone else suffered this type of abuse? i feel insecure and struggle to accept God's love.
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I am a survivor of physical, emotional, verbal abuse. I just finished a great book called "The Search For Significance". You really should check this book out. You will have to read it several times. It takes a while to see ourselves the way God does. You have so many years of abuse that it is hard to just stop on a dime and say "oh yeah! I am God's child, Fully pleasing, completely forgiven and totally accepted". So cut yourself some slack and take it one day at a time! I am right there with you and it is so hard to see myself the way God does. It will get better!
God Bless!
Hello GodsLittleDove (I'm HisLilLamb) =0)
I grew up in a family with the verbal and emotional abuse and have struggled with God's acceptance of me, like I am never good enough. I read scriptures and know it in my head but struggle in my heart.
The more I get into His presence and also meditate on how He is God not man and He is Love, the more I experience His unconditional love. And because of Who He is, not anything to do with me.
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What helps me personally is Phillip Keller's book A Shepherd's Look at Psalm 23 and learning of the relationship between the shepherd and his sheep and relating that to God.... why I chose my name =0)
Another book (sorry I would read a lot) that 'broke' me was Francine Rivers book Redeeming Love based on the book of Hosea...in the book Angel is a prostitute and God speaks to Michael to go get her and take her to be his wife. Angel thinks he only wants to use her like all men do and can't fathom his genuine love. She even runs away back to her old life and Michael goes back to get her again... in the end Angel has to find her own encounter with God... The book just magnifies how unconditional God's love is for us.
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He has also helped me in exposing the lies I believed about myself and renewing my mind with truth.
It was very hard for me to just let Him love me, simple as that, very hard... it took time for me and I can now. I think its a lot of us being willing to just let Him love us. and for me His love magnified the hurt... His light exposes darkness... but being open to feeling the hurt and receiving his love is what I think really brings healing.
HLL
Another book (sorry I would read a lot) that 'broke' me was Francine Rivers book Redeeming Love based on the book of Hosea...in the book Angel is a prostitute and God speaks to Michael to go get her and take her to be his wife. Angel thinks he only wants to use her like all men do and can't fathom his genuine love. She even runs away back to her old life and Michael goes back to get her again... in the end Angel has to find her own encounter with God... The book just magnifies how unconditional God's love is for us.
Exactly. It can make you crazy because you don't have visible physical scars to prove how you got abused and mistreated and hurt. All the scars exist on the inside only. They can only be "seen" by people paying closer attention to your words and feelings than most people bother doing. You end up questioning yourself and your sanity and your worth in ways those who got physically abused wouldn't, because of this. You don't automatically have society on your side saying what a terrible thing to happen to you -- on the contrary, most of society takes the attitude that you didn't suffer at all, that you should "suck it up" and "quit whining" -- more abusive attitudes that re-wound, re-injure, and re-abuse the already hurting survivor.It creates this confusion about yourself. It IS abuse, make no mistake about that. I suffered it for years and had a bad aftermath as well, and so even today I struggle with it. It's very hard to believe then that you have God's unconditional love, that you can actually receive God's mercy and goodness.