why does God have to have an unforgivable sin? Didn't Jesus come to save from ALL sins? Wouldn't that include this one? How is that God refuses to forgive someone who does this? Ugh it makes me sad, worried and angry. I just hate being me I don't want to be me anymore. I want to just not exist and wish I never existed in the first place. I don't like feeling like I want to commit this sin. I hate myself and my life so much. I have no reason to live anymore. Not God, not my kids, my husband..no reason to be here. I hate feeling empty I hate not having the right feelings..I hate that I like to do wrong. I hate that I am weak. I feel as if I have been stripped of all my morals and ethics and have been replaced by a psychopath who has no remorse or feelings. I have asked God to help me countless times and He did for awhile, but I screwed it up big time. Now I'm screwed; God has left me because I either committed the unforgivable sin or became an apostate. I have no hope anymore. God called me before and I accepted it I was happy to be with God and have Jesus as my savior. Why won't God call me again? I wish He would I wish He would let me know that I'm not lost forever, but I know this isn't going to happen.