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Hugs and prayers dearest April, none of us are asking you for more than you can give dear friend. We know what it is like to be where you are and are here for you also! Keeping you in my prayers today! You have gone through some amazing changes in these last few months and have been doing very well considering how much any change can through us off. Be as gentle with yourself as you are with us. Hugs!
 
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Low. Very low. What else is there to say?

Falling. I can feel myself falling lower. I think I'll be alright though. I just need more energy right now.

I can't tell if I'm high or low!!! I'm very sad and I can't sleep. Getting maybe one to two hours a night. Grrrrrrrrrrrr

:hug:s for all who are struggling. I wish I could help y'all more. :(

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Low. Tired, frustrated, annoyed, ANGRY. :cry:

Hugs and prayers dearest April, none of us are asking you for more than you can give dear friend. We know what it is like to be where you are and are here for you also! Keeping you in my prayers today! You have gone through some amazing changes in these last few months and have been doing very well considering how much any change can through us off. Be as gentle with yourself as you are with us. Hugs!


Hi friends mind if I join?

I'm crying and raging at the same time. I feel so low and forsaken. I'm telling Jesus everything, how cruel can life be? Surely He will take it up for us? He knows we are but of weak frame and need His loving help to survive evil onslaught.

Please let's all wait....await His Spirit of love to rescue us!

(I'm trying to be kind to myself, but in rage it doesn't work, I keep tearing myself to pieces, longing for good but getting the opposite. At the moment I despair our Heavenly Father about all this - why doesn't He finish us off - why would we need to suffer so much? This honestly doesn't make any sense to me at the moment, surely He knows we love Him, long for Him, hate evil wrong? Can we in wrong produce right? I know that this is His open secret, but I think/feel on the wrong side of it.)

Indeed this is how my reality feels at the moment!

Rev 8:3-13 niv

3 Another angel, who had a golden censer, came and stood at the altar. He was given much incense to offer, with the prayers of all the saints, on the golden altar before the throne. 4 The smoke of the incense, together with the prayers of the saints, went up before God from the angel's hand. 5 Then the angel took the censer, filled it with fire from the altar, and hurled it on the earth; and there came peals of thunder, rumblings, flashes of lightning and an earthquake.

6 Then the seven angels who had the seven trumpets prepared to sound them.

7 The first angel sounded his trumpet, and there came hail and fire mixed with blood, and it was hurled down upon the earth. A third of the earth was burned up, a third of the trees were burned up, and all the green grass was burned up.

8 The second angel sounded his trumpet, and something like a huge mountain, all ablaze, was thrown into the sea. A third of the sea turned into blood, 9 a third of the living creatures in the sea died, and a third of the ships were destroyed.

10 The third angel sounded his trumpet, and a great star, blazing like a torch, fell from the sky on a third of the rivers and on the springs of water- 11 the name of the star is Wormwood. A third of the waters turned bitter, and many people died from the waters that had become bitter.

12 The fourth angel sounded his trumpet, and a third of the sun was struck, a third of the moon, and a third of the stars, so that a third of them turned dark. A third of the day was without light, and also a third of the night.

13 As I watched, I heard an eagle that was flying in midair call out in a loud voice: "Woe! Woe! Woe to the inhabitants of the earth, because of the trumpet blasts about to be sounded by the other three angels!"

(I don't want to include the other three because of the shear horror of it! It is just that spiritually this is how it seems to be for me at the moment. Especially when I rage, and fail to love - these curses bite deep and hard. I have been through the Cycle of the Book of Revelation before in sinful parts of self, but it has never been so clear as now, my loveless agony within! (Strange that I should hear the apostle Paul tell me, yes urge me, to rejoice! Grrrrr the rage kindles.....but deep inside I think I begin to understand who and what Paul means by this and so divide I strife to be on the side of faith in this time of battle!))



 
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God's love visited me, humbled I bow to Him who is right so much better than I.

His Love heals wounds!

Scars remain that's all.

I have to focus on going on ahead, getting out of this low and producing more than wailing voice inside!

(The music sings God's Words to me, "my soul longs for Thee!")

I crumble even more!
I know soon He will take-up for me.
I have awaited Him all this time!
I'm rock bottom!
And He did send me messages of encouragements
brought grace! and understanding

or at least I see glimmers of light!

Right now I'm more or less peaceful in heart - not raging any more - though very close to it all still!

wailing myself really!!!

Trying to repent of lying hateful tongue, constantly hissing at me. Such hate I bring down on myself, after I look at the damage my raging self has caused EVERYWHERE in me!

I used to think that my wife and kids where the causes of most of my prolonged rages, usually this was true, because they have always been angry with me, though not this time! Yvonne was great, so where my sons, I wasn't! I tore into their unloving modes of late. I pluck my tongue out if I could! They forgive, shrug their shoulders and say. "Oh dad is raging again, poor guy" - and I hate them (in my rages) for it, so I die!! Burn alive! Eat dust, as I should! Why argue with such. I belong on my belly, when I behave like a viper biting and spiting poison like that at my beloved - even if they were/are wrong or unloving, I don't ever want to be like that again.

So I crawl off - determined not to bite or eat my own kind ever again, nor eat myself by the tail!

So the Bible maybe true in my life and not my lying and raging tongue!

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Depressed /crying.. Dont ask me why just blah right now.. Fighting it with everything I have..

I know its been the same for me, a bit like a black hole sucking me in - I know having faith in Jesus will get us out of this alive and well - the horrible moments will pass.:clap:
 
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You are right, Gerry. God will get us through.

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:hug::hug: Laura. Love you, my sister in Christ. :hug:

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Laurie, thank you for your kind words. As always, you know the right thing to say - God surely has given you wisdom and kindness for those in need of caring words.

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Lowish level this morning, still angry. Not as much as before, but still raging internally as a spoilt child who has not gotten his way. :mad: I don't want to be angry - in fact I hate this anger - but I have not yet surrendered it to Jesus, I don't know why. I will work on that today.

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Lowish level now. Trying to stay out of bed... so tired... Jarrod says it's just another sign of deepening depression. I'm trying not to see that... all I know is that I want to stay in bed forever, but I can't, since I have to clean up because I have to teach this afternoon, and right now the living room is a mess, books and papers strewn everywhere.

:sigh:!!
 
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