My life, my testimony, My God:
It seems that in a moments time our attitudes can change.
You turn your head, you notice the suns rays poking through the clouds. It's that sort of rhyme that functions with the beats of your very heart, your very soul. No matter how hot or cold it is out, or what happend days before...suddenly,...all is lost.
This is a feeling both indescribable and untouchable. Words can never explain, and feelings will never give it justice. Like love, you fully understand it when you have it. Phillipians' Peace of God, who would have known....who could have guessed?
Born in queens nyc. .raised in upstate ny.
My life's a unique twist. "It is until you've lost everything, that you're free to do anything."
I grew up 15 years as a catholic. God was tradition, God was located in the church between the time of 11:00-11:45. God only existed for 20 seconds before each dinner meal, and He only got to enjoy our monotone, repetitive, traditionally-driven prayers that were only said to have gotten it done.
Life Changed. My parents went through a painfull divorce when I was 13. Yes. 13. The age where the world and your own self doesn't make sense already...and now the heartache and frustration of divorce comes into play...
...The beginning of this divorce was tough...Both parents resided at home, one upstairs, one downstairs...the eye of the storm occured when one (My mother) finally moved out...
...God works wonders with the storms of our lives. The muddy trench we watered and sowed throughout the years apparently was placed beneath our feet. There was no Tradition or 1-800 # or Anonymous Share-Care group that could save us now...there was only only one....
...God shattered the walls we put before us, and opened the blinds that kept us from reality...and it happend to my Mother first when she came to know a christian friend at work.
Who was this God? "Mom, but we already go to church!" I had explained; that wall still there, those blinds still shut. God had his part in my life, he was hidden amonst the lies, regrets, and shamefull events of the past...There was no need to bring God up into this...
...And finally, I agreed to try out this "other" way of looking at God, stepping into a christian church for the first time. Perhaps I had found God's river of life...my eyes teared for the 45 minutes of worship in the morning. This was not the goosebumps or false abberitions that atheists and God-haters seem to claim we feel. This was not some warm fuzzy feeling us "christians" make into the name "Jesus Christ" or "Holy Spirit." For pete's sake..I wasn't even thinking about my parents divorce as I cried! This was when tradition was broken, and life had begun. I can't even remember how my mind functioned before I was saved...something was growing inside of me...
...That spark started deep within my heart, which apparently pumps flammable purities...for immediately I was on fire. There was nothing anyone could do or convince me otherwise, I found love, I found Life, I found the answer...
...Then my brother did, as did my sister,...and my father...yes even my father.
Jesus, now it's your turn to get involved.
My parents started talking again, it seems that this entity, this...as some would say "God that doesn't exist" somehow taught my parents forgiveness towards each other...as God shows forgiveness to all of US with Jesus Christ.
...yes...you know what's coming next...
..on 9/9/00..my parents Got Re-Married. As I am told, it was one of the first miracles of christ. Truly, the storm called "divorce" brought a lot of downpoor which at first seemed detramental, but soon changed a land full of mud and grass, to a valley of dandelions and sunflowers...
..Point being, at that time of the divorce, I'd say that God obviously was being "mean" to us...not knowing his Grace at the time...but soon would find out He used it to bring a family of 5 TO Him...and I rejoice in that...
I could go on forever...this is already long enough. Click on my homepage for pics and statistical stuff about me like how many cats I have... (I'm 19 BTW)...and the webpage in my profile is of a worship team I am in. [If you can't tell, I am a writer, I love to write poetry,..and also a singer]. Punk band coming soon.
So umm yea, my name's Dan...what's yours?
It seems that in a moments time our attitudes can change.
You turn your head, you notice the suns rays poking through the clouds. It's that sort of rhyme that functions with the beats of your very heart, your very soul. No matter how hot or cold it is out, or what happend days before...suddenly,...all is lost.
This is a feeling both indescribable and untouchable. Words can never explain, and feelings will never give it justice. Like love, you fully understand it when you have it. Phillipians' Peace of God, who would have known....who could have guessed?
Born in queens nyc. .raised in upstate ny.
My life's a unique twist. "It is until you've lost everything, that you're free to do anything."
I grew up 15 years as a catholic. God was tradition, God was located in the church between the time of 11:00-11:45. God only existed for 20 seconds before each dinner meal, and He only got to enjoy our monotone, repetitive, traditionally-driven prayers that were only said to have gotten it done.
Life Changed. My parents went through a painfull divorce when I was 13. Yes. 13. The age where the world and your own self doesn't make sense already...and now the heartache and frustration of divorce comes into play...
...The beginning of this divorce was tough...Both parents resided at home, one upstairs, one downstairs...the eye of the storm occured when one (My mother) finally moved out...
...God works wonders with the storms of our lives. The muddy trench we watered and sowed throughout the years apparently was placed beneath our feet. There was no Tradition or 1-800 # or Anonymous Share-Care group that could save us now...there was only only one....
...God shattered the walls we put before us, and opened the blinds that kept us from reality...and it happend to my Mother first when she came to know a christian friend at work.
Who was this God? "Mom, but we already go to church!" I had explained; that wall still there, those blinds still shut. God had his part in my life, he was hidden amonst the lies, regrets, and shamefull events of the past...There was no need to bring God up into this...
...And finally, I agreed to try out this "other" way of looking at God, stepping into a christian church for the first time. Perhaps I had found God's river of life...my eyes teared for the 45 minutes of worship in the morning. This was not the goosebumps or false abberitions that atheists and God-haters seem to claim we feel. This was not some warm fuzzy feeling us "christians" make into the name "Jesus Christ" or "Holy Spirit." For pete's sake..I wasn't even thinking about my parents divorce as I cried! This was when tradition was broken, and life had begun. I can't even remember how my mind functioned before I was saved...something was growing inside of me...
...That spark started deep within my heart, which apparently pumps flammable purities...for immediately I was on fire. There was nothing anyone could do or convince me otherwise, I found love, I found Life, I found the answer...
...Then my brother did, as did my sister,...and my father...yes even my father.
Jesus, now it's your turn to get involved.
My parents started talking again, it seems that this entity, this...as some would say "God that doesn't exist" somehow taught my parents forgiveness towards each other...as God shows forgiveness to all of US with Jesus Christ.
...yes...you know what's coming next...
..on 9/9/00..my parents Got Re-Married. As I am told, it was one of the first miracles of christ. Truly, the storm called "divorce" brought a lot of downpoor which at first seemed detramental, but soon changed a land full of mud and grass, to a valley of dandelions and sunflowers...
..Point being, at that time of the divorce, I'd say that God obviously was being "mean" to us...not knowing his Grace at the time...but soon would find out He used it to bring a family of 5 TO Him...and I rejoice in that...
I could go on forever...this is already long enough. Click on my homepage for pics and statistical stuff about me like how many cats I have... (I'm 19 BTW)...and the webpage in my profile is of a worship team I am in. [If you can't tell, I am a writer, I love to write poetry,..and also a singer]. Punk band coming soon.
So umm yea, my name's Dan...what's yours?
