Seriously.
I'm an atheist. Whenever I ask a christian this they always dodge the question and say "Because jesus loves me!" and never actually answer my question properly. How do you know it was Jesus/God that created you? Whenever I ask this I always get "Shut up satanist" as my reply.
I don't understand. I was brought up in a christian home and went to church every sunday. Yet I never understood and thought that the concept of an old bearded man was comparable to the concept of a rabbit that hops all around the earth every easter. I thought the bible was a really long story-book....
I never understood that. God didn't love me. He was too busy caring for the hateful people. People like Fred Phelps.
Hi, When I was 33, I attended a funeral. At that funeral were believing pastors, which I had no clue of then. During the funeral I imagine they gave the gospel, though I don't think I heard a word of it, as my attention was focused on something I can't explain. I can't recall now what I was sensing, but I was wholly distracted. Later I realized was the Holy Spirit (God) or that is was I believe it was. Nothing I could see, but a sense.
Anyway, after a few weeks went to the pastor of that church and said I was confused about things. Again is 20 years ago, and all I recall is him asking me two questions.
When I answered those two questions, asked him one back, then left the building, the leaves, trees, sky, clouds looks very different, and I can't explain that either. At the same time, I recall saying to myself, this is the truth (Jesus) and somehow I've always known that but supressed it.
Don't recall exactly how it went after, but began reading the bible, and learned much. I realized I had been born again at the moment in the pastors office and was a new creation in Christ.
I hungered for the bible and no one had told me what to do or not to do about anything. I happened to be in a very good church which the pastor knew it is Gods work in a person, not mans, and so the things which occurrd, such as no longer desired the things I used to be involved in, all came from God.
I didn't know a lot of things, and yet God was leading me to turn away from my former life, as again, no one told me anything, and anyway the reason I believe in God is because somehow I came to Jesus and I know God is truth.
Some come to Christ after hearing a message, some come other ways; I was one who came another way. But we all come to Christ thru Christ and by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Why I believed when I believed, I have no clue or idea.
But since I've been in Christ and all this time I can't imagine or could never imagine life without God. Without knowing God or growing in God to the best of my ability and understanding.
I know God created me, because I take Genesis literally that God created all.
Since you went to church as a youth and you do not believe today, more than likely you didn't believe back then as you also said above.
More than likely I would imagine that what you know of God was passed on to you by others and it didn't make sense to you, or whatever you saw and heard didn't reach deep into your heart. There can be many reasons.
A friend of mine went to church all her life, and knows she heard the gospel many times, but she didn't come to Jesus till she was 33. When she speculates why she heard at 33 but didn't before, she thinks perhaps the churches she was at were dead (no God, no life, no Holy Spirit (God)), so no power, however she really has no idea, nor can she know.
Same may have occurred with where you were, but in no way means it did, as we have no idea for the most part what it is that brings us to Jesus, though some can clearly say, and explain, others can not.
If you think God was too busy caring for hateful people then you were not exposed to the truth of God and that's based on that statement you made, as if you were exposed to the truth of God you would know that God cares for all people, and that you bring up Phelps, further indicates that you may have broad brushed all Christians, and God with whatever understanding you had.
Some people look at others for who God is which is a big mistake, though is natural to do, and so they broadbrush who God is by what they hear from others, what they see others who are Christians do etc, and if one desires to know God, one would need to immerse in Jesus, and follow Jesus, and not look to others for their understanding and walk.
Though we can help each other, if our eyes are on others rather than Jesus, such as yours were on phelps, then of course you would not find truth there.
Christians will fail us, God never fails. Christians also believe things about God which are not truth about God and so they may fall away based on things they believe God did, which God did not do or has nothing to do with, so lots of stuff goes on.
God does love you and always has.
Thanks for the question,
take care,
tapero