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dellinw
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I know this sounds strange, next month will be a year since I lost my soulmate and I still haven't found "me". I still feel married at times. I don't feel like I am single unless in the room filled with couples. I only feel widowed when I am standing at his grave site realizing that I have lost a lifetime (43yrs). I know he lives thru my children and grandchildren but I still am alone and lonely most of the time. I really have trouble when asked if I am single, married, or divorced. The only thing I can say for sure is that I am NOT divorced. I did not ask for this separation and did not seek it. It was not my choice to be in this place of loneliness and grief. Has anyone else felt this way since losing a mate? I have waited a year before making major decisions and all my firsts (anniv of death etc) are next month so please keep me in your prayers