I have no idea what the type of therapy is that I am in. I know that I am in counselling, soon to be in day treatment therapy, and I see a psychiatrist for medication. I might also be involved in the ACT program soon but its possible that I won't be approved for that because I do not have a criminal history and that is a prerequisite for it I believe.
Also, I know not to stop taking my medicine. I have done that before and the consequences were horrible. I ended up being suicidal and ended up in the hospital a few times over quitting my medicine too.
My dear sister, my heart goes out to you, as now you are caught up between different views of what deliverance is all about.
It's not what most say it to be, only those who went to the wrong people, and sadly got burnt by those false ministries.
Inner Healing is part-and-parcel of being set free from captivity. Actually, I would prefer not to use the word "Deliverance" at all, because as you can see from the reaction to your thread, it is a dirty word in USA. In Australia it is totally different.
Now, don't get me wrong, because medicine is a Gift from GOD, but medicine has no answers to spiritual problems, nor has pschiatry or psychotherapy.
The number of testimonies I have heard of cases who have suffered the same as you, have been set free by good Christian counselling by members of the healing ministry in many churches.
A human being consists of a body, soul, and spirit.
The body and soul can be afflicted by disease or sickness through physical or spiritual means, and sin.
You "soul" consist of our carnal mind, our emotions, our feelings, our will, and our spiritual mind (our heart).
If those parts of our soul are out of whack with each other, then inner turmoil, doubt, and confusion will exist, causing "doublemindedness".
Much of Christian's probles have been formed in our past life and growing up.
Many of our problems have been caused by trauma and abuse, which effects the soul, allowing our problems to manifest in the physical and spiritual.
Many, who are diagnosed like you, have testified after their healing that it all started with anger, that turned into bitterness, that turned in resentfulness. They all basically said that the longer their attitudes manifested in their life their personality began to change. Many became turtles, as they pulled back from rejection and abuse.
Through good sound Biblical Christian counselling, the layers of all their hurts, etc that are buried deepdown in their hearts begin to lift off.
I could talk forever the great releasing of those who had suffered for so long, popping pills, and now they are set free.
Seeing that you are a Catholic, then try and contact Francis MacNutt's ministry. I am sure you will get some good advice from him.
Be blessed in Jesus' Name.