So I fell off the horse the other night....An obsession started to grow, caught me kind of by surprise, and then totally spiked a panic type feeling. I cannot believe my body reacted when truly it is not a new obsession it just sounded more agressive or forceful. I know intellectually that I am supposed to ignore it and my head can say "that's invalid" but boy that anxiety was really the core of the issue. That "feeling" was just killing me again. If the anxiety wasn't there, I know I would have been much more able to toss the thought aside. I am coming off the anxiety spike with help from anti-anxiety meds and it really helps. The medication helps me feel better so I can better cope with the thoughts, but I know I still have to let the thoughts be there, I just have to lessen my response to them. This disorder is all b/c of that surge of emotion, that surge of fear- the thoughts are still not valid. But boy I really hate those "feelings" and I know for sure that I could handle the thoughts if they didn't cause those surges. So I will take my own advice and deal with the anxiety problem b/c my anxiety problem is what needs to be treated- the thoughts are not really the root of the issue.
Thanks for listening.
Boxers1
Thanks for listening.
Boxers1