How to get back to reality; how to learn concentration

I had some personal problems that I have overly worried about. One of it is a social problem, and it all started one day when I saw someone staring at me, whether the person intentionally did it or not doesn't matter, and whether the person realised my hurt (the person gives me an unnatural stare everytime i faced him). I know it might be my fault because I responded to it by staring back and not asking him what's the matter. But to cut the long story short I became more and more self-conscious, and I feel extremely uneasy when people are around me. I feel there is demonic influence because around the same time, I began to have sleep paralysis, and a panic attack at the same time, on an average of 3 times a night, for the past 1.5 years. When these things started at night I began to develop a fear of spirits at night and I feared the dark (before this I dont). It caused extreme worry to me and every night I would be frightened to even go to bed, and I curl up in bed frightened too.

And this began my worried lifestyle, I began to worry what people were thinking of me in the day, all day long, and before I sleep and during my sleep I would be worried of the evil spirits that come to me at night, giving me nightmares, and my whole life revolves around fear and I feel like I was a totally different person before this because this fear has taken over my mind, my grades fell from As to Fs and I began to have difficulty concentrating in class or during lectures because of my self-consciousness! And at night I would not have good rest and this is just an endless cycle! Now worry has become so ingrained in me I feel worried all the time in every place and I just can't stop worrying about how I look and just before I go to bed! And I have lost the ability to concentrate. 2 Tim 1:7 says God gave us a sound mind, what does it mean to have a sound mind? I wish to have a sound mind! But I just cannot remain calm and at peace anymore with such excessive worry! Please someone tell me how to develop concentration and stop my worrying habit! Thanks!

okay I think I have to get out of derealisation first, because my eyes are extremely sensitive to bright light I'm always frowning and everything feels cold and numb and I feel no emotion although I know that thing is happening. When I try to concentrate it just becomes worse, and I've lost the ability to concentrate plz someone advise and help me because I know as solomon says, it's wise to take advice!

And I know God will help and I will not blame him, only satan because only illnesses come from satan and not God.

SilverTheSprite said:

Hi Wonderous,

Do you have a pastor or Christian counselor who can talk with you and pray with you? It sounds to me like you have gotten to the point where you need to seek help outside of yourself. Your life shouldn't be ruled by fear and panic, and it sounds like you're getting to the point where you're almost paralyzed with fear and your life is going downhill fast. If you have a church that you attend, and you know and trust someone there, please call them. If not, please find a counselor you can speak with, and see what they recommend for you. You don't have to live like this - there IS help!!

God bless you...keep reading your Bible and praying and trusting Him, no matter how you feel. Keep your chin up! PM me anytime.

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I have already gone to several counselling sessions, but I just dont feel they are of help to me. If my family members do not understand my feelings, then what more other people who do not know me? And yes, you're right because I'm totally paralysed by fear, and that's why I need help! I dont want to continue living like this!

I keep reading the Bible and meditating on verses hoping I can keep my mind away from negative thoughts, it helps for a short while but the harder I try to fight derealisation, the stronger the feeling of derealisation. It's just so weird I can't explain the feeling, I just feel stuck with derealisation

Well I actually dont feel the need for theraphy. I believe what i need is inner healing and deliverance. I believe God can do things greater than the therapist. And I will talk to my family members or relatives about this. They have prayed for me last night and today I feel much better. I hope as time passes my derealisation will disappear. Right now I still feel derealised, but it's getting better everyday.

gracechick said:

I would pray & seek God about finding a therapist that will work with both. I know someone who does deliverance & teaches coping mechanisms. He's a great guy.

If you are having issues with taking in too much light, sound ect you might want to check out my thread on sensory integration problems.

Please find someone to share this confusion & pain with. & you are not a failure. If you hang on to your faith through these problems I consider you quite strong

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thanks! I still hang on to God, he's the only one who gives hope I dont wish to see a therapist, I believe that my derealisation will soon disappear when I come to my senses; when i finally understand why my problems are happening. Then my dissociated memories would be repaired, and I my derealisation will go. I read from a website which said that the harder you try to concentrate, the worse the derealisation gets. I touch objects, knowing it's real, but it doesn't feel real. This happens almost everyday even today. I have very poor memory of my college days, why is it so? Everything feels like a dream! When I get scolded, or get into an argument, I felt it was a dream, that i 'subconsciously' sinned. Just too much to handle, too many problems.....