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jc9992 · Dec 21, 2007

This lack of safety obsession has kinda gotten to me.

Im getting better in my spiritual life,im in church now and im praying everyday,Im really getting close to God,the past 3 or 4 months have mostly been on the upside. :clap:

My obsessive thoughts?

Not so much.

I spend a lot of time trying to make the thoughts go away,but everythings the same.I feel like im standing on a tight rope,i dont want to fall but im scared that i will if i make one wrong move.Im living in constant fear of blasphemy.I dont know what to do.My prayer is the only thing holding me up right now.As most of you know,God has shown me many times that im not condemned but im scared that i will be in the future.I really need help,i want to ignore the thoughts but im afraid if i just let them be there that ill eventually cross the line and not even care what happens.Because i know that if i do,all desire to live for God will be gone from my heart.

I need help.Someone here who is healed or almost healed i would really appreciate your advice. :help:

ChristianGuitarMan112190 · Dec 21, 2007

If you ignore the thoughts, they won't worsen. It is scary to do because you THINK they'll happen and they really won't happen as much!! You are not walking on a tight rope!! You cant blaspheme unintentially its pure hatred from the heart!!

jc9992 · Dec 21, 2007

Thanks Guitar Man.that really helps.

I know blasphemy comes from the heart.I just really dont like these thoughts.They freak me out.

ChristianGuitarMan112190 · Dec 21, 2007

jc9992 said:
Thanks Guitar Man.that really helps.

I know blasphemy comes from the heart.I just really dont like these thoughts.They freak me out.

Hey, NP man!!

Noone likes these thoughts unless there, their own!! They'll lighten up in time!!

jc9992 · Dec 22, 2007

Well i spent a whole year obsessing about whether or not ive blasphemed.Now these past few months after i found hope,this new obsession happens.(Fear of committing blasphemy in the future)

Its been a tough struggle to shake but ive been having a relatively good day today and i plan on reaching out to God tonight when i pray and then of course tommorrow is church day.

OptimisticSmile · Dec 22, 2007

my advice to you is to check the doctrine that you recieve at church with that which is spoken of in the bible. I am not sure what your denomination teaches about eternal security but it may ease your mind a bit to know that a Christian , based on the bible, is completely secure. There is nothing you can do to lose your salvation. God promises to save us. If a christian could lose his or her salvation then that promise would be a lie. God saved you despite his knowledge of the sins you would comit in your entire life. That includes blasphemous thoughts. He saved you despite that knowledge and casted your sins as far as the east is from the west. That is some uncomprehendable place... it does not exist, who can find where the east and west me. What that means is that God has forgotten and forgiven you and all of us here of our sins past, present, and future.

God measures the universe with the breadth of his hand. It is his hand that holds his dear children. There is nothing we can do to escape his hand. Niether death, nor life, or angels , or principalities and powers. Nothing can seperate us from the love of God. He will never cast us off because that is against his nature and his word. He promises to never leave us nor forsake us.

I do not expect this to be a solution to your problem, it never was for me because I knew all this all along and still struggled. Beacuse I know this and I know i am his child I can have these fears of comitting blasphemy yet be able to say "so what" and just move on. the thoughts when they come are troubling , but only to the amount of time and energy put into towards their attention and removal.

ChristianGuitarMan112190 · Dec 23, 2007

OptimisticSmile said:
my advice to you is to check the doctrine that you recieve at church with that which is spoken of in the bible. I am not sure what your denomination teaches about eternal security but it may ease your mind a bit to know that a Christian , based on the bible, is completely secure. There is nothing you can do to lose your salvation. God promises to save us. If a christian could lose his or her salvation then that promise would be a lie. God saved you despite his knowledge of the sins you would comit in your entire life. That includes blasphemous thoughts. He saved you despite that knowledge and casted your sins as far as the east is from the west. That is some uncomprehendable place... it does not exist, who can find where the east and west me. What that means is that God has forgotten and forgiven you and all of us here of our sins past, present, and future.

God measures the universe with the breadth of his hand. It is his hand that holds his dear children. There is nothing we can do to escape his hand. Niether death, nor life, or angels , or principalities and powers. Nothing can seperate us from the love of God. He will never cast us off because that is against his nature and his word. He promises to never leave us nor forsake us.

I do not expect this to be a solution to your problem, it never was for me because I knew all this all along and still struggled. Beacuse I know this and I know i am his child I can have these fears of comitting blasphemy yet be able to say "so what" and just move on. the thoughts when they come are troubling , but only to the amount of time and energy put into towards their attention and removal.

Exactly right!!

!! And spot on about the "the thoughts when they come are troubling , but only to the amount of time and energy put into towards their attention and removal"!!

jc9992 · Dec 23, 2007

I only believe that a Christian can lose their salvation if they turn from God.

I know that i cant be seperated from God unless i want to be.I just have a bad paranoia of these thoughts.

Jayangel81 · Dec 23, 2007

jc9992 said:
I only believe that a Christian can lose their salvation if they turn from God.

I know that i cant be seperated from God unless i want to be.I just have a bad paranoia of these thoughts.

I feel for you brother,

Just think, if you didnt even care for God you wouldnt have these thoughts, i know this dont help but it was rather comforting to me. Best thing to do is Keep reading His word and really use this illness to bring yourself to God.

Cast youre anxiety and fear to Him. He can handle it, i promise you

Peace be with you, i pray to God to give you comfort, love and peace at mind.

God Bless!

jc9992 · Dec 25, 2007

Everything things been good the past couple of days .

I dont really know how to explain this but i just felt like God has told me that im entering the better days right now.Since i started this thread the other day i havent
really been having problems with getting closer to God nor have i really been obsessing about my thoughts all that much(although i still do the compulsions to keep them out).

Its weird because last week i was obsessing about it 24/7 and the past few days it seems like its not even been a huge problem for me.

Its as though my mind set suddenly changed because it went from fear of committing blasphemy in the future to just thinking about the present and how im saved and knowing im saved instead of worrying that im going to lose my salvation or commit blasphemy without warning.

Its a great feeling

Merry Christmas to and to all a good night(i had to say it)

marcb · Dec 26, 2007

jc9992 said:
Its as though my mind set suddenly changed because it went from fear of committing blasphemy in the future to just thinking about the present and how im saved and knowing im saved instead of worrying that im going to lose my salvation or commit blasphemy without warning.

Its a great feeling

Merry Christmas to and to all a good night(i had to say it)

Praise God! Good work.

jc9992 · Dec 26, 2007

Yeah im glad im finally starting to get better.

Hows your OCD marc?

gracealone · Dec 26, 2007

I do not expect this to be a solution to your problem, it never was for me because I knew all this all along and still struggled. Beacuse I know this and I know i am his child I can have these fears of comitting blasphemy yet be able to say "so what" and just move on. the thoughts when they come are troubling , but only to the amount of time and energy put into towards their attention and removal.[/quote]

BINGO!!! OP!!
You've got it!! We really do already KNOW these things, as you said, it's the fight or flight response that drives us to still keep trying and trying to get that one last magical reassurance that will make the thoughts magically disappear. Instead by doing this we get them more stuck in our heads.
I just loved reading this statement from you because it shows that you know how to fight the beast which is basically not to fight at all.
Way to go buddy!
Mitzi

jc9992 · Dec 26, 2007

Agreed. i have been doing much better today.Ive still been having bad thoughts and really doubt they will ever go away but im just really gettin good at managing OCD with the help of God and everyone on here.

By the way did anyone on here think they were the only people in the world to have these problems before you found this board?

Jayangel81 · Dec 26, 2007

Im really happy that youre feeling better today.

I know for sure before i came here i thought i was the only one

ill keep you in my prayers :prayer:

brother in Christ,
Jay

jc9992 · Dec 29, 2007

Ive been doing pretty good this week although i am still doing the compulsions to keep the thoughts from coming.Any advice about that?

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