Taking my place..

penNpaper

Keep on moving
Nov 14, 2006
14,239
624
Youngstown
✟25,973.00
Country
United States
Faith
Non-Denom
Marital Status
Married
I wrote this one day after my girlfriend told me she had a year to live in August of this year (now it is four months in what she recently told me this week)

It shows my passion not only as a Christian Man of God but also a man that loves a woman that may not have much time on this earth.

She did accept my hand in marriage (yay engaged little happy couple) and hopefully the Lord shall have mercy on my soul and give us a miracle not even the valley of the shadow of death..we shall fear no evil!! Now I have to go and marry the gurl and give her the best life she deserves until death departs us which hopefully the Lord will answer my prayers to spare her life and heal her body for I do not want to lose this woman for it shall brake me inside my heart and spirit.

May the Lord have mercy on my soul during this need. All prayers are welcomed..

Regards,
ChristianDrew

Taking my Place

What is my calling oh Lord..
To suffer the things that are dearest to my heart and soul..
In order to fulfill your purpose in my lifetime..
Or is it to something forevermore too precious to hold..
Is it to be an example in your eyes oh Lord as well as unto the lost and much more..
May it be told that my purpose is to show your grace and love..
Even through the valley of the shadow of death..
I shall never fear what you are calling me to do oh Lord..
For my trust and love shall always be unto your Name..
I shall serve your cause and purpose oh Lord..
Have grace and mercy oh Lord on my soul through my trials and tribulations..
Please give me strength for I cannot bear what is in my spirit at this time of need..
Oh Lord give me grace and answers at this time..
Prepare me to take up my cross and to take my place..
As the Man of God that you have chosen your child to be..
As well as a husband to a dying wife..
Help me to show her your love through who I am..
Yea, everyone has their days numbered already before we were even born unto this temporary existence in this earthly world..
You know my passionate heart oh Lord..
You know my every waking thought oh Lord..
Even when we fall into temptation, you always willing to forgive us for you are our loving Heavenly Father to His children..
You know my sensitive spirit..
Surely you know my timid soul..
And you know my Name is written in the Book of Life..
Even when I doubt at times if you ever exist..
For I am foolish to think that..
Because here am I telling my story through your words not mine..
Oh Lord give me continuing mercy and grace..
For I cannot bear what is in my aching heart and soul..
Only to give me your strength at this time..
Even if I do not think I am ready..
For here I am standing before you oh Lord..
I am not be perfect, but heck that is how you made me oh Lord..
Prepare me at this time..
To take up my cross..
To take my place in history oh Lord..
As well as to help me when I do not believe I am ready..
Surely this is my time in this age to say one thing..
Oh Lord Here I am, now used me!!
For we do not know how many days we have on this earth..
All we know is that it can be taken away like an instant without warning..
Surely I feel like David when he fell into temptation..
Surely I feel like Job where everything was taken away and given back unto the Lord’s will and mercy..
It is now time to say oh Lord..
Help me do your purpose not mine..
For here I am today..
Going to be an leader unto the lost as well as your children that are weak at times..
Going to be a loving husband, even though it may not last forever..
Going to be a father, if you see that I am worthy enough..
Give me your words..
Give me your strength..
Give me your wisdom..
Give me your mercy..
Give me your love..
For I need this, oh Lord..
Always no matter if I am strong nor weak..
I am ready, even though I am young..
Prepare myself oh Lord..
To do this things which shall come to pass..
And when everything fades into its darkest hour..
I shall always praise your Name and never take your Name in vain again..
Just please oh Lord don’t take her away from me..
For I know there is some purpose for me on this earth..
Even if I effect one person’s life..
It may all be well worth it in the end..
To fulfill something simple as to love someone even unto their last breath on this earth..
For I am first a Man of God and second as a man in love..
For I shall love her for all the days of her precious life..
Whether a few months, a year, or until death apart us through a lifetime of memories..
You always will be my Lord no matter what happens on this earth nor the next..
Have mercy and prepare your child at this time..
Amen..