this is for all those who have no hope,
I was born in Poland, in the early age i was interested in inappropriate contentography, i believed in God but did not follow God. I also started dabbling in para natural stuff, UFO's, spiritual stuff, I would watch weird programs, hang out with satanists at the ski camp, oh and one of my favorite bands was band called 666 which is a satanic techno band, I thought there was nothing wrong with it. I started getting my fist fears after i saw a special on the stigmata, I was convinced i was gonna be the next one. My nights became a nightmare, I would wake up in the cold sweat shaking with stress and fear, during the day i would suppress everything with "stuff" but eveing came and empty feeling and fear would come back, then other fears came, me deign overnight, I was afraid that something will poses me, that i will self combust, everything, my life was hell, i thought there was no help. I moved to America and awesomnes and OOO and AAA of this country suppressed my fears for a while, but then came back with worse, I developed OCD, i would not point sheets or doors at any1 thinking they will die or get cancer, i tried to impose my ocd;s on my sister, i developed weird breathing a walking patterns. Soon Hypohondria struck thinking that i had cancer, AIDS, also at one point i wasn convinced that i was gay. My mind was playing tricks on me, i had to touch things certain many times, i had to tuck things under, fold clothes certain ways, many times, i was draging my legs on the carpet not wanting to make marks on it. My life was falling apart, so was the family everything was going down south, and i suffered so bad. I remember laying in my bed thinking that one day they will invent medication to cure all my fears, worries, my step mom worked for medicine company. My life was falling apart, I found my escape in MUCH video gaming and inappropriate contentography, I believed in God yes, but by no means followed Him. I was not saved.
One day friends of our family invited us to the Bible study, of course we were not interested, we were in our "proud stage". We were however aware of the fact that we needed change, that we needed God. We finaly broke and went to Bible study, I was lured with free food. When we saw Godly meeting, nondenominational meeting, studying of the word, breaking the bread, and the PEOPLE, they were all so loving. I remember asking Josh, how to be saved because I knew that I didnt want to go to hell, and he told me Romans 10:9, "that if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you shall be saved". I remember walking that night to my apartment praying this outloud, I remember when i surrendered to Lord Jesus.
Then a new fight emerged, I was no longer going to hell since Jesus chose me and gave me the gift of salvation, but my life was far from perfect. I started getting interested in God a little bit, Bible was still lil boring to me, but I could tell that i finaly had some1 to lean on, that the major episdodes of OCD left, Christ healed me, he gave me a life more aboundant. Satan however was furious and did not want to let go, I relized that the more I would stray from God, stronger my OCD/Hypohndria would get. I had a great councling from my pastor (1 on 1) about my episodes, YESSS i thought it all I though that i commited unpardanable sin of balspheming the Holy Spirit, I thought that i sold my soul to the devil, he, Denis, explained it all to me, in the truth, devil is a liar and a father of them, everything that doesnt align with the word of God is a lie and not truth, he told me to lay hands on my head and proclaim "I pled the BLOOD OF JESUS over myself, my mind, my thoughts" he told me to use the word as a weapon "no weapon formed against me shall prosper", greater is he that lives in me than he thats out in the world" " when Jesus sets you free you are free indeed". I fought, with the word, Jesus was my commander. I ofcourse had better times and worse times, i lost some and I won some. EVERY! please read John 15!!! It talks abaout abiding in Him and THEN we will bear the fruit, my fight has been going on for about 5 years now and I can say thta I am healed of OCD, Satan still comes back sometimes to confuse me in mind aout religion or something anbout something i must do, but I just lay it to Jesus, satan lies don align with a sound Biblical teaching, I have Joy, I have peace, (God is still working those out for me) I have Jesus. I try to live my life along the path of the parable of the kingdom of God being like a man who looks for a pearl, then he finds a perfect one and he sells everything he has and gets that pearl. Thats how our walk with Jesus must be, we must sell everything we have, things we cant imagine giving up that are bigger in our lives thatn God (easy he will help you, took me like 5 years to finaly relize that TV and video games are waist of my time, I got rid of the tv from my room and all that stuff, where i used to be a SOCOM player, on the net with microphone on my head playing and talking to people, Runescape, just killin time playing ALL the time, treating it like God and my whole life), dont get under condemnation or OCD episode that U MUST GIVE UP EVERYTHING NOW! no just give it to God, and be obidiant, LET HIM TAKE IT. Ofcourse it might cause for some changes that you must make, but no condemnation! these things take time! u dont get a six pack from one work out, we must do it and do it. We must buy that pearl (Jesus, His Kingdom) and have it in our lives, first, EASY GUYS these things take time! like I explained. Yes I am polish, my spelling sux, and spell check corrupted me, but I wanna help, I wanto to help any1 who wants that 1 on 1 counseling, i am not smart but the Holy Spirit who dwells within me, God also taught me a lot through my weaknesses. Please PM me, if you need to contact me, we can work something out. Remember guys there is HOPE! In Jesus we can Hope because in Him all fullness dwells, He took those 39 stripes before crusifixion for out healing, like the prophet Isiah writes that he was wounded for our transgressions and iniquities, by His stripes we are healed. Dont beat urself up, life is worth living, OCD is a problem that you and Jesus can beat! PLEASE PM me, I want to help, I believe that is my mission.
God bless u and remember
Jesus is Lord and He s got it under control, healing is here, abide in Christ and His word, know that he weeps with you every time you weep. In our weeknes He is strong.
I was born in Poland, in the early age i was interested in inappropriate contentography, i believed in God but did not follow God. I also started dabbling in para natural stuff, UFO's, spiritual stuff, I would watch weird programs, hang out with satanists at the ski camp, oh and one of my favorite bands was band called 666 which is a satanic techno band, I thought there was nothing wrong with it. I started getting my fist fears after i saw a special on the stigmata, I was convinced i was gonna be the next one. My nights became a nightmare, I would wake up in the cold sweat shaking with stress and fear, during the day i would suppress everything with "stuff" but eveing came and empty feeling and fear would come back, then other fears came, me deign overnight, I was afraid that something will poses me, that i will self combust, everything, my life was hell, i thought there was no help. I moved to America and awesomnes and OOO and AAA of this country suppressed my fears for a while, but then came back with worse, I developed OCD, i would not point sheets or doors at any1 thinking they will die or get cancer, i tried to impose my ocd;s on my sister, i developed weird breathing a walking patterns. Soon Hypohondria struck thinking that i had cancer, AIDS, also at one point i wasn convinced that i was gay. My mind was playing tricks on me, i had to touch things certain many times, i had to tuck things under, fold clothes certain ways, many times, i was draging my legs on the carpet not wanting to make marks on it. My life was falling apart, so was the family everything was going down south, and i suffered so bad. I remember laying in my bed thinking that one day they will invent medication to cure all my fears, worries, my step mom worked for medicine company. My life was falling apart, I found my escape in MUCH video gaming and inappropriate contentography, I believed in God yes, but by no means followed Him. I was not saved.
One day friends of our family invited us to the Bible study, of course we were not interested, we were in our "proud stage". We were however aware of the fact that we needed change, that we needed God. We finaly broke and went to Bible study, I was lured with free food. When we saw Godly meeting, nondenominational meeting, studying of the word, breaking the bread, and the PEOPLE, they were all so loving. I remember asking Josh, how to be saved because I knew that I didnt want to go to hell, and he told me Romans 10:9, "that if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you shall be saved". I remember walking that night to my apartment praying this outloud, I remember when i surrendered to Lord Jesus.
Then a new fight emerged, I was no longer going to hell since Jesus chose me and gave me the gift of salvation, but my life was far from perfect. I started getting interested in God a little bit, Bible was still lil boring to me, but I could tell that i finaly had some1 to lean on, that the major episdodes of OCD left, Christ healed me, he gave me a life more aboundant. Satan however was furious and did not want to let go, I relized that the more I would stray from God, stronger my OCD/Hypohndria would get. I had a great councling from my pastor (1 on 1) about my episodes, YESSS i thought it all I though that i commited unpardanable sin of balspheming the Holy Spirit, I thought that i sold my soul to the devil, he, Denis, explained it all to me, in the truth, devil is a liar and a father of them, everything that doesnt align with the word of God is a lie and not truth, he told me to lay hands on my head and proclaim "I pled the BLOOD OF JESUS over myself, my mind, my thoughts" he told me to use the word as a weapon "no weapon formed against me shall prosper", greater is he that lives in me than he thats out in the world" " when Jesus sets you free you are free indeed". I fought, with the word, Jesus was my commander. I ofcourse had better times and worse times, i lost some and I won some. EVERY! please read John 15!!! It talks abaout abiding in Him and THEN we will bear the fruit, my fight has been going on for about 5 years now and I can say thta I am healed of OCD, Satan still comes back sometimes to confuse me in mind aout religion or something anbout something i must do, but I just lay it to Jesus, satan lies don align with a sound Biblical teaching, I have Joy, I have peace, (God is still working those out for me) I have Jesus. I try to live my life along the path of the parable of the kingdom of God being like a man who looks for a pearl, then he finds a perfect one and he sells everything he has and gets that pearl. Thats how our walk with Jesus must be, we must sell everything we have, things we cant imagine giving up that are bigger in our lives thatn God (easy he will help you, took me like 5 years to finaly relize that TV and video games are waist of my time, I got rid of the tv from my room and all that stuff, where i used to be a SOCOM player, on the net with microphone on my head playing and talking to people, Runescape, just killin time playing ALL the time, treating it like God and my whole life), dont get under condemnation or OCD episode that U MUST GIVE UP EVERYTHING NOW! no just give it to God, and be obidiant, LET HIM TAKE IT. Ofcourse it might cause for some changes that you must make, but no condemnation! these things take time! u dont get a six pack from one work out, we must do it and do it. We must buy that pearl (Jesus, His Kingdom) and have it in our lives, first, EASY GUYS these things take time! like I explained. Yes I am polish, my spelling sux, and spell check corrupted me, but I wanna help, I wanto to help any1 who wants that 1 on 1 counseling, i am not smart but the Holy Spirit who dwells within me, God also taught me a lot through my weaknesses. Please PM me, if you need to contact me, we can work something out. Remember guys there is HOPE! In Jesus we can Hope because in Him all fullness dwells, He took those 39 stripes before crusifixion for out healing, like the prophet Isiah writes that he was wounded for our transgressions and iniquities, by His stripes we are healed. Dont beat urself up, life is worth living, OCD is a problem that you and Jesus can beat! PLEASE PM me, I want to help, I believe that is my mission.
God bless u and remember
Jesus is Lord and He s got it under control, healing is here, abide in Christ and His word, know that he weeps with you every time you weep. In our weeknes He is strong.
