Loss of Faith

Danielof the Island said:

Pray for me, because I am loosing my faith. I had a great childhood up until I was 15, and then it exploded in my face and has been in a downward spiral. Recently, things have improved. I've gotten a used car and have a lernet's permit so I can learn how to drive.

The reason why I'm loosing my faith is because:

1. I don't think one of my two sisters is a Christian.
2. My mom left a week before I turned 18. (I'm 23.)
3. I'm 23, but I live at home with my dad.
4. I stay at home all day everyday unless I go out with my dad or sister.
5. My appendix burst when I was 19 and almost killed me. Then a subsequent fever almost killed. Infact, I did give up. It was a sobbing friend on the phone and Christ's grace that helped me recover, because... I can't stand it when a woman cries.
6. Right now, I have an ear infection in my left ear, it hurts so bad, I feel like I want to claw my eardrum out. I don't have medical insurance, so I cannot see a doctor. At best, I can go to the pharmacy, but they've done all they can. I'm going back tomorrow to BEG them to do more, because if they refuse me, I'm screwed.
7. Whenever my pets got sick, my parents let them die instead of taking them to the vet. I was told it was cheaper to get a new pet. Each loss was like loosing a child.
8. I live in poverty while my neighbors live in beautiful homes.
9. I didn't finish highschool. I left before I finished 9th grade. This was not my choice.
10. I don't have a GED.
11. I can't afford to go to college even if I had my GED.
12. I'm unemployed.
13. I cannot leave and start over, because I have nothing but a few dollars and a driver's permit.

Why didn't God allow me to die when I was giving in to a deadly fever after my appendix burst? I'm starting to wonder if God exists. I could dissapear, and only 5 or so people would notice.

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Danielof the Island said:

Pray for me, because I am loosing my faith. I had a great childhood up until I was 15, and then it exploded in my face and has been in a downward spiral. Recently, things have improved. I've gotten a used car and have a lernet's permit so I can learn how to drive.

The reason why I'm loosing my faith is because:

1. I don't think one of my two sisters is a Christian.
2. My mom left a week before I turned 18. (I'm 23.)
3. I'm 23, but I live at home with my dad.
4. I stay at home all day everyday unless I go out with my dad or sister.
5. My appendix burst when I was 19 and almost killed me. Then a subsequent fever almost killed. Infact, I did give up. It was a sobbing friend on the phone and Christ's grace that helped me recover, because... I can't stand it when a woman cries.
6. Right now, I have an ear infection in my left ear, it hurts so bad, I feel like I want to claw my eardrum out. I don't have medical insurance, so I cannot see a doctor. At best, I can go to the pharmacy, but they've done all they can. I'm going back tomorrow to BEG them to do more, because if they refuse me, I'm screwed.
7. Whenever my pets got sick, my parents let them die instead of taking them to the vet. I was told it was cheaper to get a new pet. Each loss was like loosing a child.
8. I live in poverty while my neighbors live in beautiful homes.
9. I didn't finish highschool. I left before I finished 9th grade. This was not my choice.
10. I don't have a GED.
11. I can't afford to go to college even if I had my GED.
12. I'm unemployed.
13. I cannot leave and start over, because I have nothing but a few dollars and a driver's permit.

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anna

BLESSED_KiSSY said:

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[/list]my prayers go out for you.



because you were born with a purpose, there IS purpose in life.

May God help you and guide you. God bless!

take care,
anna

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That's too cliche. haha I'm sorry, but it's true. HAHA
Anyway...glad you here to cheer him up.

Danielof the Island said:

Pray for me, because I am loosing my faith. I had a great childhood up until I was 15, and then it exploded in my face and has been in a downward spiral. Recently, things have improved. I've gotten a used car and have a lernet's permit so I can learn how to drive.

The reason why I'm loosing my faith is because:

1. I don't think one of my two sisters is a Christian.
2. My mom left a week before I turned 18. (I'm 23.)
3. I'm 23, but I live at home with my dad.
4. I stay at home all day everyday unless I go out with my dad or sister.
5. My appendix burst when I was 19 and almost killed me. Then a subsequent fever almost killed. Infact, I did give up. It was a sobbing friend on the phone and Christ's grace that helped me recover, because... I can't stand it when a woman cries.
6. Right now, I have an ear infection in my left ear, it hurts so bad, I feel like I want to claw my eardrum out. I don't have medical insurance, so I cannot see a doctor. At best, I can go to the pharmacy, but they've done all they can. I'm going back tomorrow to BEG them to do more, because if they refuse me, I'm screwed.
7. Whenever my pets got sick, my parents let them die instead of taking them to the vet. I was told it was cheaper to get a new pet. Each loss was like loosing a child.
8. I live in poverty while my neighbors live in beautiful homes.
9. I didn't finish highschool. I left before I finished 9th grade. This was not my choice.
10. I don't have a GED.
11. I can't afford to go to college even if I had my GED.
12. I'm unemployed.
13. I cannot leave and start over, because I have nothing but a few dollars and a driver's permit.

Why didn't God allow me to die when I was giving in to a deadly fever after my appendix burst? I'm starting to wonder if God exists. I could dissapear, and only 5 or so people would notice.

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Danielof the Island said:

That would require a damn driver's license. I don't have a damn driver's license. No one I know gives a damn enough to help me get a damn GED.


[wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] that. I've spent my entire life doing what my parents say without question. Infact, I'm 23 and still doing that. No. When I get out from under my dad's wing, I will be a free bird and no one will ever tell me what to do as long as I live! I would rather die than loose such freedom. As for college, that's not going to happen. I've come to realise that is not within my reach.

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Danielof the Island said:

That would require a damn driver's license. I don't have a damn driver's license. No one I know gives a damn enough to help me get a damn GED.


[wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] that. I've spent my entire life doing what my parents say without question. Infact, I'm 23 and still doing that. No. When I get out from under my dad's wing, I will be a free bird and no one will ever tell me what to do as long as I live! I would rather die than loose such freedom. As for college, that's not going to happen. I've come to realise that is not within my reach.

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hopebox1982 said:

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May God forgive you today for your lack of compassion. You should be ashamed of yourself. This guy came here for guidance and you feed him snakes. Is that how you treat those who you care about it they come to you in need? May God lay on your heart wisedom instead of foolishness.

I will pray for you Danielof the Island for guidance and a clear path as to what your purpose might be.

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hopebox1982 said:

it's funny that you say that because my roommate and I just got into an arguement about that same approch

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Danielof the Island said:

Pray for me, because I am loosing my faith. I had a great childhood up until I was 15, and then it exploded in my face and has been in a downward spiral. Recently, things have improved. I've gotten a used car and have a lernet's permit so I can learn how to drive.

The reason why I'm loosing my faith is because:

1. I don't think one of my two sisters is a Christian.
2. My mom left a week before I turned 18. (I'm 23.)
3. I'm 23, but I live at home with my dad.
4. I stay at home all day everyday unless I go out with my dad or sister.
5. My appendix burst when I was 19 and almost killed me. Then a subsequent fever almost killed. Infact, I did give up. It was a sobbing friend on the phone and Christ's grace that helped me recover, because... I can't stand it when a woman cries.
6. Right now, I have an ear infection in my left ear, it hurts so bad, I feel like I want to claw my eardrum out. I don't have medical insurance, so I cannot see a doctor. At best, I can go to the pharmacy, but they've done all they can. I'm going back tomorrow to BEG them to do more, because if they refuse me, I'm screwed.
7. Whenever my pets got sick, my parents let them die instead of taking them to the vet. I was told it was cheaper to get a new pet. Each loss was like loosing a child.
8. I live in poverty while my neighbors live in beautiful homes.
9. I didn't finish highschool. I left before I finished 9th grade. This was not my choice.
10. I don't have a GED.
11. I can't afford to go to college even if I had my GED.
12. I'm unemployed.
13. I cannot leave and start over, because I have nothing but a few dollars and a driver's permit.

Why didn't God allow me to die when I was giving in to a deadly fever after my appendix burst? I'm starting to wonder if God exists. I could dissapear, and only 5 or so people would notice.

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hopebox1982 said:

I'm not a person to push someone's buttons to get them to straight-out. and my roommate thinks I don't care because I didn't push her hard enough that she failed a class. This is funny that God has lead me to you.

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hopebox1982 said:

yeah, the problem with that over online though is that it can't be taken many different ways. because of that you can find a constructive way of tell him the same thing. Like giving him a web site where he can try to get his ged. or something like that.

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hopebox1982 said:

lol yeah. I am but I not. I just don't believe in negative reinforcement.

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