I had an abortion about 10 years ago when I'm in my early twenties and I just graduated. Due to the circumstances at that time and knowing my ability, it was difficult to raise a child.
I read an article from Mother Theresa some months back which she said was right. I was selfish to take away the life of my baby so that I could live.
This feeling of guilt has been haunting me and each time I enter the church for service I would cry. I'm not sure whether I cry because I sin so much that I'm ashame to face GOD and afraid that he would never forgive me for what I've done? Or I was upset that during the time when I needed someone most, he is not there with me? I know there was a mixture of both and that's why I have not been attending services for a long time fearing I have to come to a point to face this judgement.
Can someone tell me what I should do? I'm afraid to sleep and I can't talk to anybody cos' my family doesn't know about all these.
Thanks,
coca
I read an article from Mother Theresa some months back which she said was right. I was selfish to take away the life of my baby so that I could live.
This feeling of guilt has been haunting me and each time I enter the church for service I would cry. I'm not sure whether I cry because I sin so much that I'm ashame to face GOD and afraid that he would never forgive me for what I've done? Or I was upset that during the time when I needed someone most, he is not there with me? I know there was a mixture of both and that's why I have not been attending services for a long time fearing I have to come to a point to face this judgement.
Can someone tell me what I should do? I'm afraid to sleep and I can't talk to anybody cos' my family doesn't know about all these.
Thanks,
coca