So I've felt and acted terribly and all around "icky" lately. I've been eating a lot. A LOT. I am bored--I eat. I see food on TV--I grab a snack. I was watching the Tyra Banks Show yesterday (love the show!) and it was about anorexia and modeling. The talk of food made me want to eat. So I ate.
I have been doing terrible in school. I am lazy. I get home and get on the computer and watch TV. My grades are suffering because of it. I sleep in class sometimes, or daydream. I have no want to learn. I have no want lately to push myself or try to do anything.
I get to where I nearly hate my mother sometimes, and so I go to my room and cuss her out. Then I feel all better.
I'm just... blargh. What's wrong with me? >_<
And no, it isn't depression. I am not constantly sad. I am generally fine with friends unless they remind me how very gay I act, which makes me really sad. And how "You wouldn't be Justin--the most awesomest person ever--if you weren't gay". I am also very happy when I watch TV (except Gray's Anatomy. It's so depressing
). And I am very happy playing Vanguard: Saga of Heroes.
I have been doing terrible in school. I am lazy. I get home and get on the computer and watch TV. My grades are suffering because of it. I sleep in class sometimes, or daydream. I have no want to learn. I have no want lately to push myself or try to do anything.
I get to where I nearly hate my mother sometimes, and so I go to my room and cuss her out. Then I feel all better.
I'm just... blargh. What's wrong with me? >_<
And no, it isn't depression. I am not constantly sad. I am generally fine with friends unless they remind me how very gay I act, which makes me really sad. And how "You wouldn't be Justin--the most awesomest person ever--if you weren't gay". I am also very happy when I watch TV (except Gray's Anatomy. It's so depressing
). And I am very happy playing Vanguard: Saga of Heroes.
