welcome to the family mighty woman of God!
1.how to pray.
god is nothing more than a new father to you, ask for anything you need and be sure youll get it because jesus died to provide for all your needs. its faith in jesus' work. and if you hold fast to your beleif, and not give in to doubt, you will receive in due time. and simply ask him how to pray.
2.what to pray for.
anything at all that you need or desire that would not hurt your relationship with him. god will give it to you.
there is no set way to pray, the most important thing is your heart, he understands, talk to him like hes your daddy, maybe even the father you never had, if thats the case.
3.where to start reading.
i think the best place is the book of john, atleast somewhere in the new testament, becuase the new testament applies to you, much of the old will not apply to you or seem in anyway relative unless your like a bible scholar or something. and get a bible that is in new day language, dont go king james version unless you really want to, becuase sometimes all the thees, thuses and begates can make ya go crasy, and you even start talking like that hehe.
4.when we die?
the life youve lived on this earth and the decisions youve made, whether you were serving god, or serving satan when you died, determine were youll go, to be with satan, or to be with god.
5.the only beleiver in the family.
all i can say is find a refuge, if you really want to continue in this, find a place you can run to, your room with the door shut, anywhere, and get alone with your bible and with jesus everyday, where you and him can meet and get to know each other often. your relationship with him, must be more powerful than the relationships with ungodly people that you cant help living with. when the pressure is building, run to your place of god and you will find rest. dont worry about changing them, untill you yourself have been changed, then take them where youve been. you cant take someone anywhere youve never been.
6.friends.
the same, stay in your secret place.
its not gods will for you shun them, but at the same time, you have to be very careful not to get caught up in those old things again. in order to stay on the right path you must have good influences, you must stay places that help your relationship with god, this may mean not being so close to people who are not christians anymore. its not shunning them, its just keeping your distance sometimes. the people you surround yourself with, will determine where you go in life, choose wisely who you stay close to. do you want to go where your friends are going? if not, then you better be careful how close you get to them. look at their lives, are they going where your going? if they arent, then you should no longer walk with them. but im not saying shun them, just keep your distance, but let your light shine.
and dont get into areguments about whether or not gods real.
you know hes real, those areguments only confuse you and make you mad.
areguments like that are usually only becuase someone is mad or someone simply wants to hurt you.
7. a true beleiver.
a true christian....one who beleives god with all his heart, and serves god and others with all his heart, and does not let the evil in the world effect him.
you will find the more you read and pray the more excited you will be about serving god and the more youll beleive him.
the more time you spend in your specail place of god, the more powerful and immune to enemies you will be.
and find a person you know and trust who you look up to as far as being a good christian, and stick with them, learn from them and feed off their strength when you are weak.
8.god expects..
god wants you to love him, and worship him, and obey him.
he wants to get to know you better, he wants you to come to him alone in your prayer and bible reading, so he can meet with you and show you all things, hes been waiting franticly to hear your voice and feel your touch for so long...he loves you so much. go meet him and love him.
and dont act like the bible is god, but act like you and god are reading the bible together, like mother/father and child reading a book together. ask him about it, and talk to him about it, stay in prayer as you read it.
that is so powerful! it will show you things no one has ever seen!
to stay in prayer while you read it, talking to god about it while you read it, then your reading it together, hell show you awesome things! and hell become so real to you.
well godbless you, your attitude blesses me.
i hope i was of some help to you, i want to do anything i can to help you.
lee myers.