Brothers and Sisters,
I am sorry I have not been here in a while. I truly believed I was healed completedly of bipolar and didn't need the fellowship and support. But I never stopped taking my meds.
But I did and have made a mess of a beautiful and wonderful situation and blessing because of this illness.
I was involved with a wonderful man. But my insecurities drove him away.
It's been about two weeks since I blew up at him, fearful, delusonal and broke up with him because I thought he broke up with me, but he didn't.
I got angry with him for no good reason. Said untrue things about him, that he treated me badly but he didn't. He has been nothing but kind and patient, know I had some emotional insecurities but not knowing about bipolar.
It's a long distance relationship, a nine hour difference, so I depend on email to communicate and if he calls me. He is offline and will not talk to me anymore. I really hurt him and drove him away.
I sent him an email yesterday and I don't know if he will read it.
I told him I was sick with fever and that's why I said what I did. I didn't say I was bipolar. I said I had viral meningitis at the time and was full of fever and infection and didn't know or mean what I was saying.
Brothers and sisters, please, please, please pray that this man will read his email and forgive me and give me another chance. If we get back together I will explain the bipolar but I could not yet.
Forgive me for being selfish right now. Please pray for me and that God will give him the desire to forgive me and restore this relationship with me. Please pray God will restore this relationship and make it even more blessed and stronger...
I reallly need a miracle!!!
Thank you all so much.
Patty