Praying for wisdom about my calling

I am praying for wisdom about finding my calling.

I ask you to agree with me in prayer as I ask my God to keep his promise in James 1:5

I want to use my passions, skills, and gifts to do Kingdom work (church or ministry webmaster, church marketing, ministry resource marketing, etc., but the Lord has not opened many doors in this area). 

I thought the Lord called me to this when my last career of 20 years ended 4 years ago.  But churches cannot afford my professional rates.

Instead, business doors keep opening.  I take the work to support my family, but feel that this is a lower calling, focused on filthy lucre instead of Kingdom Gold (though it does produce the ability to tithe and serve ministries at no charge).

Maybe I misunderstood the calling I thought the Lord laid on my heart.  Or maybe this business work is the calling, so that I can tithe and give of my time. 

I pray for wisdom to see and hear what the Lord wants me to do instead continuing to seek what I thought was my calling. 

 

Thank you all for your prayers.  The fast response is encouraging.

Some of these words provoke a little defensiveness....  As for my rates and charging God...  I do sometimes volunteer my time, and materials, etc.  Just the other day I gave my church $200 worth of printing and $1000 worth of design time.  I enjoy doing this when I can. 

When I charge, I do not charge God, but might charge a ministry in the same way they pay for electricity, secretarial labor, an ad agency, or a pastor salary.  I charge half my usual rate for ministry work. People tithe to support the work of a ministry, because there are bills and payroll to meet.  If I pass up business oportunities to work on things for God, I think the verse, "A workman is worthy of his wage" should apply.  Don't you?

I wish I could work in a real ministry - part time or full time...  When I work on minstry efforts during my work day, using my professional skills and talents, I feel I should be as right to charge for that as a secretary or pastor charges for their time.  If a ministry pays for electricity, and for pastors and leaders, then I think it should be ok to support my family by charging.  

Or does wisdom say work for the world and give money to God ?

 

 

Thank you lambslove and graftmein for your understanding and encouragement.

debs - I thought my calling was to use my web and marketing / communication skills to help churches and ministries harness the new technology - for the glory of God and the expansion of the Kingdom.

I wanted to help churches use web technology to solve their communication problem - and believe me there is one in most churches

They could streamline operations and reduce costs using the web as well. How many times does a church secretary have to stop typing to answer phone questions about phone numbers, church history, resource scheduling, times and dates for events, etc. This should all be online.

Then, I would like to help pastors and teachers put their messages into graphical form and use the web to spread the gospel.

My gifts are leadership, administration, prophecy, shepherding, teaching, and creative communication. My skills are marketing, management, communication, public speaking, writing, graphics, computers, network administration, webmaster, etc.

My passions are leading, teaching, organizing, creating order out of chaos...  and for seeing souls saved, though I am not personally a good evangelist...

In the past I have had seasons of exercising the gifts of leaderhsip, prophecy and intercessory prayer, as in leading wednesday night prayer meetings, healing prayers, receiving words of wisdom or knowledge so that I knew how to pray for somebody or counsel them, witness to them, etc...  But that has gone dry for now... maybe due to overwork.

May God bless each of you.

Thanks for the prayers, and please, keep them coming...