In all my 40 years I have never been stable in my life.... until now.
Has anyone ever gone for a period of time in complete remission, completely stable, no symptoms at all?? As if you do not even have bipolar disorder? Is this what being stable is? Is this possible with severe BP1 or any type of BP? How long can it last?
Even my current coctail Lamictal and Seroquel has helped tremendously but still until recently, they have not completely taken all my symptoms away. I have always had problems with psychosis and auditory hallucinations while awake. In fact the symptoms of schizo-affective disorder fit my symptoms more closely than BP1. But of course I am not a doctor.
My biggest problems were my ultra rapid cycling and paranoid delusions, irritability, uncontrollable rage and obsessive compulsive disorder as well as depression and mania even experiencing mild symptoms on my current coctail. The meds have allevieted the severe depression and mania, but still there is a remnant of everything, not so bad but still there always to some degree or another especially if triggerred.
But suddenly these symptoms have disappeared completely. This has never happened ever in my life not even for day, never any relief. I prayed the Lord bless the efficacy of my meds and bless the results. In fact a sister in the Lord annointed me with oil and prayed over me in the Spirit an immediately after she prayed my mind cleared and I became stable. The Lord did just as we asked Him to. I wonder if he has healed me miraculously and completely. I have slowly begun to cut back on my meds and still stable... No symptoms at all....It is as if I do not have bipolar disorder anymore. (of course I don't really know what this is....) but it feels like it.
What am I experiencing? Miraculous healing or stability? I know I have to be aware of delusions of healing and that I have only been on my current coctail for six or seven months so the cumulative effect? But I feel like I am healed...
Appreciate any thoughts or feedback about what stability is like.
Has anyone ever gone for a period of time in complete remission, completely stable, no symptoms at all?? As if you do not even have bipolar disorder? Is this what being stable is? Is this possible with severe BP1 or any type of BP? How long can it last?
Even my current coctail Lamictal and Seroquel has helped tremendously but still until recently, they have not completely taken all my symptoms away. I have always had problems with psychosis and auditory hallucinations while awake. In fact the symptoms of schizo-affective disorder fit my symptoms more closely than BP1. But of course I am not a doctor.
My biggest problems were my ultra rapid cycling and paranoid delusions, irritability, uncontrollable rage and obsessive compulsive disorder as well as depression and mania even experiencing mild symptoms on my current coctail. The meds have allevieted the severe depression and mania, but still there is a remnant of everything, not so bad but still there always to some degree or another especially if triggerred.
But suddenly these symptoms have disappeared completely. This has never happened ever in my life not even for day, never any relief. I prayed the Lord bless the efficacy of my meds and bless the results. In fact a sister in the Lord annointed me with oil and prayed over me in the Spirit an immediately after she prayed my mind cleared and I became stable. The Lord did just as we asked Him to. I wonder if he has healed me miraculously and completely. I have slowly begun to cut back on my meds and still stable... No symptoms at all....It is as if I do not have bipolar disorder anymore. (of course I don't really know what this is....) but it feels like it.
What am I experiencing? Miraculous healing or stability? I know I have to be aware of delusions of healing and that I have only been on my current coctail for six or seven months so the cumulative effect? But I feel like I am healed...
Appreciate any thoughts or feedback about what stability is like.