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I lost my faith over ten years ago because I was being taught that in order to be baptised in the Holy Spirit I had to speak or pray in tongues. I did consider myself saved and very much did love the Lord but I knew I had to recieve the baptism. Whenever I went forward to recieve the baptism I did feel the presence of God but never did I speak in tongues. I felt God was rejecting me and slowing but surely became entrenched in sin to the point where I hated myself, blameing both myself and God. I felt it was because of sin that He was not accepting me but from what I understood was that the purpose of the baptism of the Holy Spirit was to give us power over sin so I was very much confused and still am!
Since than, or about 2 years ago I was feeling empty. I was deep into sin and felt my life comeing apart. I rededicated my life to him but never have asked again for the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I'm trying hard to live the christian life but I still feel there is something missing. That feeling of not being full in the spirit has led me to learning about all kinds of theologies and although this has help to fill part of that void I still don't feel full.
This brings me to the point of the thread. I feel once again that I need the indwelling of the Spirit of God but I'm afriad that once again God will reject me for some reason. I don't want to go to a church, walk up in front and pray for the Holy Spirit only to find that I will not speak in tongues. Now since this is the charismatic forum can I please get knowledge from some of you on whether or not I must speak in tongues. The only real pentacostal church I know of in town is The Assemblies of God and from what I gather they say that the speaking in tongues is a necessary manifestation of the Baptism. Is this true? I truely love the Lord and I don't think I could take another try at the baptism and end up not speaking in tongues. My heart will break if this happends all over again and I'm scared that if I do try this again and the same thing happends I will end up falling into sin again, just like the last time.
PLEASE HELP!!!
Since than, or about 2 years ago I was feeling empty. I was deep into sin and felt my life comeing apart. I rededicated my life to him but never have asked again for the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I'm trying hard to live the christian life but I still feel there is something missing. That feeling of not being full in the spirit has led me to learning about all kinds of theologies and although this has help to fill part of that void I still don't feel full.
This brings me to the point of the thread. I feel once again that I need the indwelling of the Spirit of God but I'm afriad that once again God will reject me for some reason. I don't want to go to a church, walk up in front and pray for the Holy Spirit only to find that I will not speak in tongues. Now since this is the charismatic forum can I please get knowledge from some of you on whether or not I must speak in tongues. The only real pentacostal church I know of in town is The Assemblies of God and from what I gather they say that the speaking in tongues is a necessary manifestation of the Baptism. Is this true? I truely love the Lord and I don't think I could take another try at the baptism and end up not speaking in tongues. My heart will break if this happends all over again and I'm scared that if I do try this again and the same thing happends I will end up falling into sin again, just like the last time.
PLEASE HELP!!!