So disappointed in myself...

good for you you have identified your problem and taken responsibility for it. those are tqo big steps in changing your behavior. ask you friend Jesus for help to change he is in the miricale bussiness you know.

ok, I soo used to be like that but one day something really hit me hard. I'll share it with you. one time I was being lazy, realy lazy about something that I was responsible for. Then a kid named Anderson called me a formiga. I had no idea what he was saying till he ran up to me with a bible in Portugese and opened it up to proverbs 6. Goes like this...

6 Go to the ant, you sluggard! Consider her ways and be wise, 7 Which, having no captain, Overseer or ruler, 8 Provides her supplies in the summer, [And] gathers her food in the harvest. 9 How long will you slumber, O sluggard? When will you rise from your sleep? 10 A little sleep, a little slumber, A little folding of the hands to sleep -- 11 So shall your poverty come on you like a prowler, And your need like an armed man.

When I read that, I looked at that boy and just felt baaaaad. I mean, he understood the importance of dilligence and it hit me like a ton of bricks.

You can't change what happened with that job. That is all in the past now. But, you can learn. Everytime we mess up, it is opportunity to grow. The great thing is that you notice your mistake. And if for some reason you don't find the motivation next time, pray that the Lord will send you a little kid to convict you. Worked for me

I agree with didymus, It's good that you identified a problem that you have and have accepted it. This is a big step towards being a responsible adult, If God saw fit that this woman asked you tocome back to work, Then he will surely provide another opportunity soon.

Don't get down on yourself about it. Thats the important thing. I've done it too. Sometimes God will even provide something else, or even something better for us.
I know sometimes opportunities come and we need to jump right on them. But we can't trip out if we miss them either. God will provide something else. Just be faithful to His calling on your life FIRST, and all the rest he will provide. When He opens doors, look for them, and if you sense they're from God, walk through them. You shouldn't worry about yesterday. Today is a new day....

The trick is now that you know you've made a mistake, don't make the same mistake again.