hey,
Guys, I've got a problem. I've been fighting "anorexic tendancies" for quiet a long time. Lately things have totally lost control though. Yesterday and today were the first times I ate all week. I freak out if I eat and don't bike, run or exercise some other way to make sure that I burn more calories that I eat. I've been tempted lately to purge. last night, I almost gave into that temptation, I spent around 10 minutes on my bathroom floor trying, but then gave up. It's so hard, I wanted so bad to go try more until I get it right. And I ended up cutting, although I'm not sure if it's because i didn't get it right, or because i tried....I just don't know what to do. I don't know the point of this thread, prayers? advice? anything...I need...help...thats hard for me to say, but I just....i don't know...I've known all along that if I didn't do something it would turn into something more, more than i wanted...and it's headed that way, but i don't know if i can stop it know...i don't kno....sry....i doubt i made much sense....
Guys, I've got a problem. I've been fighting "anorexic tendancies" for quiet a long time. Lately things have totally lost control though. Yesterday and today were the first times I ate all week. I freak out if I eat and don't bike, run or exercise some other way to make sure that I burn more calories that I eat. I've been tempted lately to purge. last night, I almost gave into that temptation, I spent around 10 minutes on my bathroom floor trying, but then gave up. It's so hard, I wanted so bad to go try more until I get it right. And I ended up cutting, although I'm not sure if it's because i didn't get it right, or because i tried....I just don't know what to do. I don't know the point of this thread, prayers? advice? anything...I need...help...thats hard for me to say, but I just....i don't know...I've known all along that if I didn't do something it would turn into something more, more than i wanted...and it's headed that way, but i don't know if i can stop it know...i don't kno....sry....i doubt i made much sense....