The whole taking "side" of contentedness and discontentedness of singleness (which is sort of silly because anyone can vary between the two and even feel both at the same time), got me thinking about why I feel the way I do and what does God really have to say about it. I feel the way I do about singlness because of this: I was really content in being single and then God sent someone wonderful into my life. I didn't want to go out with him, didn't want to get involved, but he continued to be in my life and after much praying God just sort of worked things out in our relationship and friendship and we begin dating. And it was great. It wasn't perfect- I made mistakes and he made mistakes but God blessed it. But strangely it ended- and I don't know why or understand why it ended but it did. That being said, it changed my view on singleness, I now think that being part of a couple and eventually marriage is one of life's most positive and enriching experiences (with the right person of course). I experienced something intensely positive in my life with an amazing and Godly man, now it is gone and it's a huge loss in my life. It makes me sad and i'm still healing and going through the grieving process. God has used this to teach me many things, but I still have trouble understanding why it happened or why God allowed it to happen when I was fine being single before. God's word tells me that He has a pupose for all things in our lives, so I hope that that purpose will be revealed to me. So yes, I am discontent with being single, yet at the same time I trust God to have me right where He wants me at exactly the right time. It all comes down to : Do I trust that God is big enough to handle my life, even though my circumstances are telling me different? Do I let my life be ruled by His word, or by my emotions? It's very hard. Discontentedness does not mean that you are wasting your life away, having a pity party at every turn. If anything it's made me want to pour out my life into others to lessen the pain. I think if we have experienced something positive in the relationship area and then lost it, then we have to go through greiving to be made whole again. To not acknowledge greif and then just jump into the next relationship, bottles up a whole lot of issues that are going to come out latter on is less positive ways.
"i will never forget this awful time, as i grieve over my loss. Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this: The unfailing love of the Lord never ends! By his mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is His faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day" Lamentations 3:19-23
I hope my words have blessed and encourgaged ya'll. This is also something I needed to type out to remind myself thatGod's got it all in control and that even though i'm hurt and unhappy- God still has plans for my life and can still give me hope.
"i will never forget this awful time, as i grieve over my loss. Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this: The unfailing love of the Lord never ends! By his mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is His faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day" Lamentations 3:19-23
I hope my words have blessed and encourgaged ya'll. This is also something I needed to type out to remind myself thatGod's got it all in control and that even though i'm hurt and unhappy- God still has plans for my life and can still give me hope.