Jody7818 said:
At times, she can be very nice. But when she becomes emotional, she becomes very mean. ...blame me or overexaggerates ..... becoming angry ....I just don't know how to deal with this. I want to be with her, and I really love her. But my heart grows cold ....Is there any scripture that I can show her that may help her with her problem, and how I can deal with situations that I have described above?
Hi Jody
Just read your salvation testimony - sounds very much like mine. And so does some of the problem you have. (for more specifics see my
website mentioned on my profile, especially "Personal Testimony" and "Marital Madness")
I really feel for you. My boyfriend (who is now my husband of 40 years) was very kind and loving until we were married. Then he immediately turned into a mean, selfish, control freak, blaming his sins on others. And I reacted by becoming compliant. (I had come from a dysfunctional home, and had learned early on to be a people pleaser, hoping to cause people to love and accept me. I had no idea what boundaries were, and I certainly never thought that I had any rights as a person.) My heart became cold toward him, and I lost any love I had.
Friend - be very, very careful. First,
God tells us to avoid an angry person. Proverbs 22:24 - "Do not make friends with a hot-tempered man, do not associate with one easily angered,..."
That's the main answer and that is sufficient - just obey God and AVOID. No matter how we might feel about the person. A marriage to a person like that can lead to years of deep misery. It doesn't matter what a person's emotions are, it is still their choice to be mean. You can't change her - only God can do that. You can only change yourself.
I going into my personal story in more detail to show what could happen if you continue in this relationship. Since I married such a person, I didn't know the Bible, and therefore couldn't follow a verse I knew nothing about:
to change myself:
*I made the decision to
trust Christ as my sinbearer without any good works of my own, trusting in Him to get me to Heaven one day.
*I saw a
Christian counselor and attended
Christian 12 Step recovery groups (such as Overcomers), in order to learn why I was such a people pleaser, and to learn how to have boundaries in my life. I would not divorce willingly because I knew that was not God's will. I considered separation until he would get a large amount of Christian counseling himself. (Made a mistake there - returned much too soon).
*I came to realize that
God was all I needed - no matter how I was treated, God could take up all the empty spaces and it was possible to be content. *And
I took responsibility for my part of being in an unhappy marriage (I chose him, I didn't date him long enough to see how he performed under pressure, I didn't take enough note of his relationship with his parents, I didn't divorce him, etc.)
Then God began to change him - but that whole process took 32 years and a lot of misery and humiliation to get to that point. Countless times I wished I had never met him. (Not to say I'm any better than he was - I just commited my sins on the inside, where no one could see them). In the Recovery groups, I learned many people there had made the same mistakes over and over in the past (whether in marriage or dating) - always choosing the same sort of unhealthy person, until God changed the people in recovery emotionally.
I am not trying to tell you what to do, except to be extremely careful. I'll be praying for you and for her, friend. I know it would be heart-wrenching to give her up, but there are many godly women out there, and being around them will help you grow spiritually and not suffer as you are now doing. I am so sorry you are suffering - here is what I learned in my pain: (both NIV)
2 Cor 1:9 Indeed, in our hearts we felt the
sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.
Jer 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Aloha in Christ, friend