I don't understand our culture's stereotypes...Why is it that men are supposed to be into news, sports, 'rough' activities, car repair, tools, psysical toughness, etc? If not, they aren't manly enough. If he shows too much emotion he's immediately outclassed by the tougher men.
Then you come across a quite aggressive man like myself who wants to serve God in other ways. I'm much more of a mental, deep thought type of person who can be entertained just with a hike through the woods with a pad of paper in hand. I have a continually growing fascination with art, music, storytelling, and science. I don't care about cars (from my perspective: materialistic), sports (a waste of time), getting tough (too self-conscious), news (don't need MORE stress in my life). I am open, communicative, genuine, and talk about my emotions. I like to talk and discuss and listen and aid. Although far from a mind reader, I'm usually able to pick up the small nonverbal cues that women are so famous for passing under our radar screens.
I have to warn that this isn't a lament because I can't get myself any ladies or anything like that. That's not the problem. I've just always felt so different than all the other men and so much like my female friends that I feel kind of weird. I'm very attracted to the more butch and tomboyish class of a girl....with all the homo-centered hype running around lately, I can't help but feel that maybe I'm a lesbian trapped in a man's body? :-D
Every time I try to act all manly and macho it backfires. It's just not me. For some reason there's a pressure among men to act a certain way. But sometimes because of how I am and what's expected in our culture, I can't but help to feel like a girl. Almost all of my friends are girls, and while one or two have expressed the interest of possibility of "going further," I can't help but think that I've pigeonholed myself from what a 'guy' is supposed to be... Geesh, I'm starting to sound like a woman going through an identity crisis. Can anyone relate?
Then you come across a quite aggressive man like myself who wants to serve God in other ways. I'm much more of a mental, deep thought type of person who can be entertained just with a hike through the woods with a pad of paper in hand. I have a continually growing fascination with art, music, storytelling, and science. I don't care about cars (from my perspective: materialistic), sports (a waste of time), getting tough (too self-conscious), news (don't need MORE stress in my life). I am open, communicative, genuine, and talk about my emotions. I like to talk and discuss and listen and aid. Although far from a mind reader, I'm usually able to pick up the small nonverbal cues that women are so famous for passing under our radar screens.
I have to warn that this isn't a lament because I can't get myself any ladies or anything like that. That's not the problem. I've just always felt so different than all the other men and so much like my female friends that I feel kind of weird. I'm very attracted to the more butch and tomboyish class of a girl....with all the homo-centered hype running around lately, I can't help but feel that maybe I'm a lesbian trapped in a man's body? :-D
Every time I try to act all manly and macho it backfires. It's just not me. For some reason there's a pressure among men to act a certain way. But sometimes because of how I am and what's expected in our culture, I can't but help to feel like a girl. Almost all of my friends are girls, and while one or two have expressed the interest of possibility of "going further," I can't help but think that I've pigeonholed myself from what a 'guy' is supposed to be... Geesh, I'm starting to sound like a woman going through an identity crisis. Can anyone relate?
