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Hello everyone! I had a few topics that I would like to discuss that are going on in my life, but I think it would be good if people would read my testimony. It is rather long, but it is really important. Thanks to everyone who feels like taking the time to read my background I'll type my question in just a bit.

Thanks!

After reading my testimony, I think this question can kinda be a bit more understood.

I have never felt anything for girls, and as I hinted in a few places in my testimony, nothing ever really meant anything to me. As I have walked with god and has he has been working in my life, he has been showing me new things. One of those new things he showed me was a girl back in July. He gave me the feelings of wanting someone to be close to and he gave me the feeling that I was empty... he gave me these feelings, because as of the day before I met this girl, I had believed computers were way better than girls

Anyhoo, I ended up asking this girl out, but she already had a boyfriend. Since then, we have become good friends and i'm friends with her boyrfriend as well. The thing is, however, I still long to be close to someone. As each day goes by, I am reminded of this emptyness in my life. I trust god and I know he is working in my life, but these feelings he has given me have really gotten me kinda down lately. I guess it is pretty normal for a guy to feel the need to have someone in their life (and girls the same way), but this is totally new to me. I have prayed to God and have asked that he would maybe sorta show me what it is I am supposed to do. He gave me these feelings for a reason. I want to know if I should wait for him to put me and a girl together, or if I should go look and maybe it would be his will for me to run into one. There are no girls anywhere around me that are quite like this one girl that I asked out. I know it is important to be patient, but it is hard for me. Though I have prayed, I have not really felt any better, but I know god is doing something in my life with this. These feelings and emotions are making me feel down, but at the same time I know he is doing something... but I dont know if I am supposed to find the answer with his help, or if a girl will eventually come up to my door and knock.

The feelings are sticking with me, and the only way to get rid of this empty feeling is to fill the hole... but I dont know how exactly God intends on me finding the special person who will come into my life.

I've never had these feelings before... and I really am having a hard time controlling the desire to have someone to be close to. People suggested that maybe it was God trying to tell me that I needed to be closer to him, but I dont know. My relationship has not done anything but improve over the past few weeks ever since he started doing some serious changes (such as giving me these new feelings for girls).